It's Complicated

10

He walked into my apartment, I ran to the couch and patted a spot next to me, he walked over and sat down, a bit uncomfortable.

"Whatcha wanna watch?"

"I don't know, what do you have?"

I crawled down to my shelf of movies that I collect.

"Pretty much every Disney movie you can imagine."

"The Lion King?"

I pulled it out.

"Yep!"

He smiled, looking less awkward.

"Wanna watch it?"

"Sure!"

I waddled over to the dvd player, causing him to giggle, I smiled at that and popped the movie in.

"I'm gonna make popcorn, kay?"

"Sounds good."

I walked into the kitchen and pulled out my phone.

'ash dash'

'what'

'tylers at my house :^)))))'

'dAM'

'yeah but i mean idk i kinda feel bad for using him, he actually looks into me'

'then dont use him, maybe youve found the one~~~'

'oh fuck off, i gtg'

';^))))'

I grabbed a popcorn bag and threw it in the microwave, then walked back out to Tyler. I grabbed the remote.

"It's in the microwave, let's just start watching."

"Mkay."

I pressed play and heard the nostalgic music begin to play, I decided to have some fun because why not? I can have some fun with this kid before I dump him. I started singing horribly along with the music, he laughed and joined in, his voice was actually amazing compared to mine, it caught me off guard for a second. I never noticed how beautiful his voice sounded, too bad I'm only going to hear that voice moaning. I felt a wave of sadness rush over me but I shook it off. As we neared the end I grabbed a pillow and raised it in the air, mimicking the movie. He laughed but was cut off by the beeping of the microwave, I hoped over the couch and wandered to the kitchen, laughing. I grabbed the popcorn and hopped back onto the couch, I cuddled up next to him, he was warm and comforting. He tensed up but then relaxed and wrapped an arm around me as i laid the popcorn in his lap. I could hear his heart beat quicken as he wrapped an arm around me, I let out a heavy sigh, reaching for some popcorn. He ran my fingers through my hair and I hummed in content.

~

We were about half way through the movie but I wasn't even watching at this point, my mind was racing.  God, what have i gotten myself into?  I can't deal with this again, I just can't.  I promised myself I'd never fall in love again- and I'm going to keep that promise.  Let's do this.  I placed my hand on his thigh, rubbing it up and down, he tensed and shifted slightly.  And my hand froze.  I can't do it.  I moved my hand away and prayed that he wouldn't question it.  Fuck, why is this so difficult?

~

I hadn't even realized when I'd fallen asleep but soon I was beeing nudged awake, a soft voice whispering.

"Hey Josh, wake up."

I opened my eyes and stretched, pushing up against his chest and sat up.

"Tyler?"

I looked at the screen, then back at Tyler and giggled, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.

"Sorry I fell asleep on you."

"It's ok, you missed the movie though."

"Dang, oh well, I've seen it like a thousand times anyway."

"Same."

"Same? You're gayer than I thought you were."

He rolled his eyes.

"Oh fuck off. I guess I should get going now."

I panicked, I just want to get the first night over with so he knows how this relationship is gonna go.

"What? You don't have to go, why don't you sleepover! I mean if you're not doing anything."

"Nah, I'm not, of course I'll stay!"

"Yay! Sleepover! Whatcha wanna do baby? I- you don't mind if I call you that right?"

I bit my lip which seemed to get him a bit flustered, I'll keep that in mind for later.

"I- uh- No I don't mind."

"Can I confess something?"

"Sure."

"I thought you were straight all this time because, ya'know you hang with that girl a lot and I just figured."

"Oh yeah, that's Melanie, we're best friends, but nothing more than that. I honestly don't even know which way she swings."

"My friend Ashley has a total crush on her, I can just tell, she always denys it though, I don't know why."

Might aswell have some conversation with this kid before I take his innocence.

"OHMYGOD, did you see those two kids in science, Dan and... what's his name?"

"Phil?"

"YES. I ship it so hard, you know what ship means right?"

"I wasn't born yesterday, I may look straight but I know what ship means."

I laughed out loud, he's pretty funny.

"Sweet, ohmygod I got this new snapback last weekend with Ashley, it looks adorable."

I ran out of the room and came back with my snapback.

"Like it?"

He smiled and eyed the hat, along with the rest of my body.  He is so adorable, his hair, I can't deal with it.

"Love it."

"Let's go into my room."

I led him to my bedroom and I sat on my bed near the pillows, patting a spot next to me.

~

We spent the night shit talking other people at school. We were up til 2am and I didn't even notice, but Tyler was dozing off.

"Josh, it's two in the morning, I'm tired.."

"Already? Fine, cuddle me."

He hesitantly crawled up to where I was sitting and he laid down behind me, he wrapped his arms around my and I snuggled into his grasp, sighing, completely forgeting about the plan and letting myself fall alseep in his arms.

"Night."

"Night."