Routine, noun; sequence of actions regularly followed; a fixed program; synonyms: procedure, ritual, drill
The doctors had told him that having a routine would make him feel grounded, like he was in control of something. this was not the case. instead, it made him feel like he was out of touch with his senses, unable to stop his limbs from completing every day's activities. Day after day, week after week, month after goddamn month.
Gerard Way, former lead singer, former father, former husband, was not doing so well.
He had lost all that made him feel happy. His band members, his family, his career. His solo album had been a total flop. He had lost it all, and couldn't summon the energy to do anything about it.
Stupid routine. Why did he start it in the first place? What was the matter with him?
But despite all these questions that seared his mind day after day, he still couldn't stop. Wake up, eat, take a walk, watch tv, eat, sleep, repeat. Every page was longer than the last, every episode increasingly more boring, every meal more tasteless and dismal. The only way out of this everyday torture was to cease existing; Commonly known as "death."
It was easy enough, right? Walk to the drugstore, buy the pills, walk back. The doctors said he wasn't allowed to have pills, but who gives a flying fuck what the doctor says? The doctor was the one who set him into this godforsaken routine, anyway. He couldn't scold him after he was dead.
So it was as simple as that. He would be out, done, above all of this bullshit depression, his routine. All he had to do was swallow the pills, and his legacy would be finished.
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Remember Me (Frerard)
FanficAn au in which not only has Gerard Way lost his band members, but his family, and his happiness. he's sunken into a cheerless daily ritual which can only be broken by death. or so he thought. (I do not own the cover art, so I'm giving full credit to...
