joshler oneshots

secret admirer

today, february 14, was valentines day. the day the couples loved and took the time to appreciate their partners, and the rest of the people only liked the discount chocolate leftover on the 15th. i usually fell under the second category. that is, usually. i thought it'd just be the same old same old this year. boy, was i wrong.

after walking back from lunch that day, i stopped at my locker to put my lunch box away. to my surprise, i found a pink heart with writing on it. there was a very sloppily translated note in spanish. it said "mirar en para un mensaje ;)". the grammar was horrible, but i understood what it meant. look inside for a message. someone must've slipped a note in my locker.

with my blood pumping fast and my hands getting clammy from the anticipation and overall anxiety of finding out who this was and what the note said, i fumbled with my combination, messing up once, but finally opened my locker. sure enough, i found a cute little red envelope with white hearts drawn all over it. i really hated valentine's day decorations.

opening the envelope, a thick piece of paper cut with designs was inside. this was also in spanish. "tú tienes un secreto admirador. mirar yo en el cafetería." you have a secret admirer. see me in the cafeteria.

at first, i thought this could be debby, as word had it she was going to ask out one of her exes- one of which were me- or my friend ashley, as she's been extra flirty with me lately. after thinking, i realized it said un instead of una. that meant it was masculine- a boy was my secret admirer. maybe it could be.. no, he's my best friend. he's never mentioned anything about liking guys. i couldn't necessarily be sure that the masculine words were there for a reason, though; it could easily be a mistake seeing how horrible this person was at spanish. finally putting my lunch box into my locker, i shoved the note into my pocket and walked back to the cafeteria. my next teacher wouldn't care if i was late, and if she did, i'd tell her i was using the bathroom or something. wiping my sweaty palms on my jeans and taking a deep breath, i opened the door to see an empty cafeteria. confused, i started to turn around when i was interrupted by a pair of arms around me and a body pressed behind me followed. i froze up, not knowing who it was. i picked up their scent, and it smelled like- tyler? i quickly turned around and my suspicions were confirmed. in front of me was my best friend, tyler, who currently looked terrified and yet was smiling wide. again he hugged me, and i hugged tightly back. was he really my admirer? did he actually like me, or was this a platonic thing? or a joke?

"i love you, josh," tyler whispered.

i mirrored his words back to him. "i love you too, tyler. you know you suck at spanish, right?" i joked, pulling away from him.

"i know, shut up, i used google," tyler laughed.

"so, you're, uh.. my.. secret admirer?" i asked.

"well, not so secret anymore," tyler replied with a smile. after pulling apart from the hug just enough to look at me, he leaned his forehead against mine, and my heart sped up. this meant he was gonna kiss me. i'd known him a long time and i'd kind of had a platonic crush on him, if that made any sense. it was subtle enough to not make anything awkward. until recently, anyways.

for the past few weeks, i'd find myself staring at his lips, wondering to myself how they felt and how they tasted, how they'd move against mine, or i'd find myself sketching his face in the margin of my notes, never being able to get the proportions just right, wishing there was some platonic way to just feel and trace his features until i could draw them right, or i'd find myself fantasizing about an evening in the middle of nowhere where you could really see all the stars, not just the ten or twenty you could see here in the city, pointing out ones that changed colors and talking about deep universe stuff until we saw the sun rising, and even then just watching it together.

these thoughts all ran through my head at the speed of light, and tyler was starting to lean in. it didn't seem like him to make a move like this, but i definitely wasn't complaining. unable to bear the wait, i pushed forwards and crashed my lips into mine and time stopped. neither of us breathed, we just took in the feeling of each other. i couldn't tell how much time had passed before i parted my lips, deepening the kiss, and brought my hand to the side of tyler's head. once the shock of the event subsided, i was aware of my feelings. i'd expected the butterflies in my stomach to be exploding right now, but instead they were released, replaced by a weight in my stomach that dropped as soon as our lips connected. it felt nice, unlike the butterflies before they were set free. kissing tyler felt right, and even better when he kissed me back. we stood there holding each other and lips connected, alone in the dark cafeteria, for an infinite amount of time. tyler smiled into the kiss before pulling away for breath. i hadn't realized i needed breath too. we stared into each other's eyes, still trying to process what was happening. tyler joseph likes me. he just kissed me. while tracing his jawline, i kissed him again, a little more energetic than last time. finally, this wasn't just a fantasy anymore. i was feeling his lips, taking in his taste, tracing his features. thoughts like these buzzed through my mind, not even staying in my mind long enough for me to remember them before a new one came in. everything was electric. his touch was warm and sent energy though me, making me shiver slightly at our skin contact. suddenly, tyler gasped, pulling back with wide eyes.

"oh, my god, i totally forgot to ask you!" he ran back to the table where he was standing out of sight before and grabbed a heart-shaped box of chocolates and a fake rose. "josh, will you be my valentine?" tyler asked like a little kid with a smile plastered on his face. "i, uh, was gonna get a real rose but those die. i wanted it to look pretty all the time, like you," tyler added.

with everything that just happened, overwhelmed was an understatement. it really started to hit me and i started to fumble with my words.

"i- u- yea- i, u- tyl-" i stuttered horrifically. so instead of talking, i kissed him again. it was short and sweet, and i pulled back smiling. "yes, tyler," i said, finally able to form words, "of course i'll be your valentine."

with that, we walked hand in hand out of the cafeteria with smiles plastered on our faces and not a care in the world but for each other.

aa hey sorry if the kiss scene was bad i don't have a lot of experience w writing them but i did my best. it's still supposed to be all over the place bc josh was overwhelmed but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯