My Beautiful Bella [COMPLETED]

Chapter 14

Bella P.O.V

        I felt as his cold lips pressed against mine, as I pulled him as close to me as possible.  His arms wrapped around my waist, he tried pulling away, but I wouldn't let him.  Eventually he stopped trying and kept kissing me.  At some point in time I had to pull away to catch my breath.  I smiled as I did, I was completely speechless.  That was our first kiss.  That was my first kiss.  It was perfect.  He was perfect.  We were perfect.

        "I can't believe that was our first kiss," I blushed as I tried going in for another kiss.  He resisted it and left the room immediately without saying a word.

        What just happened? Did I do something wrong? I thought he liked it? I sat there in my room wondering why he left.  I don't understand what happened.  I kept thinking about the kiss.  I felt my lips as I noticed they went numb.  They were still cold from his touch.  I smiled at that thought.  I looked at the time, it was midnight already.  I shut off the light and went to bed with the kiss still in my mind.

Edward P.O.V

        What have I done? Did I just ruined things between the both of us? This was a mistake! I shouldn't have come back.  I knew this would happen, but this can put both of us in danger.  I thought to myself in anger wondering what I've done.  I ran out the door back into the forest where I had came from.  I was running for about five minutes and decided to stop.  I was still in the woods and sat by a tree hoping to just be alone.  I knew that this would not only cause danger for Bella and I, but for my family as well.

Bella P.O.V

        I woke up a little bit later in complete screams I could feel the tears shedding down my face.  The nightmares started again, well at least I hoped that they didn't.  It was about four o' clock in the morning, and I ran downstairs trying to catch my breath.  I ran as quickly as possible into the living room where everyone else was.

        I practically gasped for breath as I choked out my sentence, "Where is he? Where's Edward?"  Everyone dropped they're heads except Alice, she had the same smile on her face that I always saw.

        "Alice don't even try it!" I heard Esme snap at Alice she was shaking her head. 

        "Why not? She deserves to be with him!" Alice basically yelled back at Esme who dropped her head in regret.

        "Alice is right, she has the right to be with him now. We can't separate them forever," I heard the innocent voice come from Carlisle as he got up from the couch and moved away from Esme.

        "Are you sure about that? She's still too young! She'll be in danger if she stays with him!" I felt fury build inside me as I tried not to walk over to Esme and slap her.  I didn't though, I kept calm and knew that she was just trying to protect me just like Edward was, but I still had to yell at her for separating me from him.

        "Well none of this would have ever happened if you didn't push him away from me!" I yelled at her and I heard gasps all around the room.  I got so mad to the point where I really wanted to hit her. 

        "I was worried about your safety Bella!" She was on her feet now, I started backing up, scared that this was the danger she was talking about.

        "Edward was keeping me safe! He had been keeping me safe for all my life! But it was you! It was you who ruined it! It was you who brought the nightmares back because you forced him away from me! And it was you who kept me away from him when all I wanted was for him to be in my life! You were the one who ruined it for me and everyone else!"  I honestly regretted saying those words, but I couldn't help it.  They just came out.  Before I could apologize, Esme ran up the stairs to her room, I thought she was crying, but I knew she couldn't. I really felt bad now.

        "Do you still want to see Edward? He'll want to see you Bella," I nodded as Alice led me out the door and put me on her back as we ran until we found Edward.

        I watched as Alice turned back to the house, and ran back.  Around the corner I found him.  He was sitting underneath a tree with his head in his hands.  It sounded like he was dry sobbing.  I tried to fight back the tears that were about to start falling. 

        "Edward?" I sat next to him as I tried to get him to remove his hands away from his face.  "Can you please look at me, and explain what I did wrong?"

I heard a little laugh come from underneath his hands. He looked up at me trying to hold in a laugh. I didn't really know what was funny, but I guess he knew that I didn't know either because he stopped laughing as he looked at my facial expression.

"Bella you didn't do anything wrong, I did. I don't know why you keep thinking that you are the one that is always doing something wrong," he started laughing again and I frowned.

"Well it seemed like I did something wrong since you ran out of my room and came straight here," his face turned blank as he looked away from me again.

"You did nothing wrong, it was me. I shouldn't have let you kiss me. It was wrong of me to do that," he frowned as he turned his head back to me. His eyes were filled with sorrow and regret.

I smiled as I reached for his hand and locked it in with mine. "You didn't do anything wrong. I mean I love you Edward. And not in a brotherly way. I've always felt this way since I met you. And I know you have the same feelings for me too." He smiled as he gently pressed his lips back onto mine.

My cheeks were red as a tomato probably because he smiled as he caressed my cheek. "What are my cheeks red?" He nodded and laughed as he kissed me again.

It was cold outside, freezing as you might say. I started shivering as his cold lips touched mine, he noticed and pulled away from me. He laughed as he glided his finger across my lips, "Your lips are purple, are you cold?" I nodded as I laid my head on his shoulder, and felt the warm blood rush back into my lips.

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We soon decided to head back home, I really wanted to apologize to Esme. I knew I shouldn't have said those things to her. I was just so angry, and how she denied everything. I knew she loved me and cared for me. She was my mom basically. The closest person in my life to being a mother to me.

        We both walked into the house with our hands still locked together.  When we walked in, everyone was waiting by the door.  This reminded me of the time when Edward was told to leave, and I could feel that he was just as nervous as me. 

        "Where's Esme?" I asked in almost a close to panic tone. 

        Everyone was silent, and you could see the sadness in all of their eyes.  Then Carlisle stepped up and had his head down to the ground, "She's gone Bella."