My Beautiful Bella [COMPLETED]

Chapter 15

Bella P.O.V

"Gone? What do you mean gone?" I was in complete shock, and I could tell the others were too.

"Gone. Like she just left," I could see the sadness in Carlisle's eyes. You could tell he regretted taking my side. They were mates, so I understood how he felt.

"Well you could find her can't you?" He shook his head. "But can't you track her down with her scent?" He shook his head again.

"She left a while ago, her scent is barley there, and if we try to track her, we most likely won't find her," he said with his face looking at the ground now.

I looked up to Alice, she was frowning now, "I know Bella, we can still try.  Emmet and I will bring her back home okay?" I nodded and she gave me a slight grin.

"Edward take Bella upstairs with you, she needs to rest, and we'll try to have Esme home before you wake up Bella," I looked over at Edward who was looking over at me and smiled.

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        I laid awake looking up towards the ceiling regretting everything I had said to Esme.  I didn't end up sleeping the until later that night.  I was scared to go to sleep again, I thought that if I did, I would never wake up.  I did nothing but blame myself for Esme leaving. 

        "It was my fault," I said in a whispering tone while fighting back tears. 

        "What are you talking about?" My eyes started watering as I heard Edward's voice.  The voice that I thought was filled with comfort, but made me feel horrible.

        I pulled myself up to him and whispered back, "It's my fault she left.  I didn't mean what I said to her.  It's all my fault," I was crying now as my tears fell onto his chest.

        "How is it your fault? What did you say to her?" I hesitated, I really didn't want to repeat the words I regretted.

        "Bella tell me, and it's not your fault, she decided to leave, tell me," I hid my face in his chest before I answered.

        "I told her that all of this was her fault, and how she put me in risk of danger from keeping me away from you.  I blamed her for everything, even my nightmares coming back," before I could stop and not say my last words, Edward caught them and lowered his head to meet mine.

        "Your nightmares? What are you talking about? I thought they stopped when you were eight?" I didn't answer I just looked into his eyes as my tears kept falling.

        "Well they came back.  I don't know why, but I had one when you left my room earlier," I watched as his eyes filled with regret and sadness.  "It wasn't because of you. I mean, the past always comes back to haunt you right? It's really nothing.  I bet it was just a one time thing."  I could see in his eyes that he didn't believe that my nightmares were just a one time thing.  I gently gave him a kiss on the cheek and reassured him with a smile.  I laid my head back down and closed my eyes.

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***Bella's Dream***

        "Leave me alone!" I yelled and tried running up to my room.  I was grabbed at the top of the stairs.  I felt my heart stop as I was thrown down the stairs.  I felt as my blood trickled down my face. 

        The sound of laughter I had once heard before was running towards me.  There was a gust a wind that blew across my face.  "Just leave me alone! Please! What have I ever done to you!" My blood was turning colder and colder each time I yelled in pain.  The laughter was fading away, and started turning into footsteps that slowly walked towards me.

        I tried screaming for help again.  It didn't work.  Nothing worked when I cried and pleaded for help.  No one came.  All of the sudden, there was a dark figure in front of me.  It was coming closer and closer to me as I stood there crying.  I tried backing up, but I couldn't move.  It felt like I was frozen in one spot.  The dark figure started running towards me.  Then everything turned pitch black.

***End Of Bella's Dream***

        My heart stopped beating as I woke up screaming and crying for help.  My eyes were filled with tears as I tried to breathe again.  I tried to stop screaming, but I couldn't stop.  It was non-stop screaming as more tears streamed down my face.  I felt a cold hand on my shoulder as I sat up in bed still screaming bloody murder.

        "Bella, it's okay you're fine, it was just a dream," I tried to let the voice calm me down, but nothing worked.  I kept hyperventilating as I tried to keep calm.  Nothing was working why isn't anything working?

        "Don't touch me!" I screamed and yelled trying to get out bed.  The cold hand wouldn't let go of me.  I started shaking and held my head in my hands. 

        Moments later, my heart started to ease, and the cold hand was still holding me.  I was still shaking as I continued to cry.  I tried to keep my breathing under control as I forced my tears to stop shedding.

        I felt the hand let go of me as my tears dried up.  "Bella, look at me, are you okay? Look at me, please," the voice was calm as I picked my head up.  It was Edward.  The cold hand I had tried to push away was his. 

        I tried fighting the tears again as I saw my face in his eyes.  I stared into his eyes for a few moments.  My eyes started watering again, as I pulled him closer to me to meet my lips.  I felt a sense of comfort as he wrapped his arms around me.  I felt my cheeks burn red as I fell back in bed letting go of his cold lips.

        "I love you Edward," his face lit up as he pulled me back into his grasp for another kiss.

        Between kisses his voice turned soft as he said, "I love you Bella."