Meeting Deception (Gerard Way Fanfic)

Chapter Six

A/N: Sorry I was gone for a while. Anywhore, here's chapter 6 ^-^

Another nightmare. Just peachy. This one had Gerard in it again, this time we were sitting in the meadows. I know what you're thinking. How could it be a nightmare if I'm in the meadows with my best friend?

Well, we were sitting, talking, joking, laughing. We pointed to clouds saying what we thought they looked like. All of a sudden we both got quiet, and looked deep into each other's eyes. His honey hazel eyes, they looked as if they were filled with... lust. I stared blankly at him, while he gave me this longing stare, as if he wanted something from me.

"I love you," he whispered. He began leaning forward as did I. Just before our lips brushed, the sky turned grey, it started to thunderstorm, the flowers wilted, the grass died. We both looked up to the sky, when I looked back down to eye level with Gerard, it wasn't Gerard anymore. It was some scary monstrous creature staring at me. I slowly stood up, trying to run away. Like in all of my dreams, I was running a never-ending path.

This time, though, in my dream, I did something different. Instead of me trying to even run anymore, since the path wouldn't end, I stood there. The beast stopped in its tracks and looked at me, confused, almost. I held my arms out, ready to feel the monster's wrath. The beast looked confused though. At one point, I think it shrugged its shoulders. It turned around and just... left.

I know what you're probably thinking. Nothing bad happened, so how is it a nightmare?

Gerard said he loves me. We almost kissed. Kissed. I gave in- well inside of the dream at least. But I gave in, none the less. And that was the scary part. I wasn't exactly elated to have Gerard Way in my dream as a romantic figure.

There was a feeling in my stomach. I began to realize this feeling, the putrid one I had. As I realized what it was, I felt disgust. I felt rejection, because, oh, if I ere to show this feeling to anyone they'd be twice as disgusted. The feeling I had in my stomach, the treacherous, vulgar feeling I felt, it was the same feeling I saw in Gerard's eyes before we almost kissed in my dream. Lust.

I got out of bed to stretch and check the time. 9:22 AM. When Gerard said he wanted to spend extra hours with me, did he mean the whole day or earlier than last time? Gosh, maybe I should just rethink everything. Maybe I shouldn't even see him today.

I have these feelings already inside of my stomach, I can't take the risk on acting on them. Then again, when have I ever acted on feelings, especially affectionate ones. Well, it was only a day or two ago since I told Lynda how I actually felt. I showed her the gratitude she always deserved. Anything could go down when- scratch that if I meet up with Gerard. And if I happen to act on these feelings I have for him, of gosh, he'll reject me. He'll be disgusted, and once he shows how horrified he is of it, I'll never forgive myself.

It'll feel like he stuck his hand into my chest and squeezed my heart until it popped. It'll feel as if he had grabbed my arm, twisted it and tore it off, causing me to feel immense pain.

Maybe I should talk to Lynda. She's read books about romance. Maybe she's read what happens to a person who starts to feel affectionate feelings for one person and they're sure the other one doesn't feel the same. I need to talk to Lynda.

Speaking of her, where is she? I didn't see her in bed, it was neat and made. Maybe

she went out. But where could she possibly have gone to? She never leaves the house unless it's to get food, yet there's plenty of food here. I have no idea where else she could be. Suddenly I started getting worried, what if she had gotten kidnapped and I had no way of contacting her so I had no way of knowing whether or not she was alright.