more than this // lrh

//15//

*one week later*

Luke and I had our first fight. It wasnt too bad but he left me hurt. He didn't hit me, he just really hurt me emotionally. He told me that I was bothersome and that my depression was annoying him. He told me he didn't mean it and it was in the heat of the moment but I just couldn't believe him. I haven't spoken to luke in 3 days and I miss him so much. I relapsed again, I was a month clean and then luke told me what he told me and it triggered me. I plan on talking to him today, I miss him holding me in his arms. Just as I was about to go see luke there was a knock at my door. I opened it to reveal a teary eyed luke. "Baby I'm so so so sorry about what I said. I didn't mean any of it, it was in the heat of the moment and I was having a bad day and it just slipped out. And if you never want to see me again I understand but just know I love you so much" a few tears leaked from his eyes. I knew he didn't mean it. I believe him. I love him too much to let him go. "I forgive you, and I love you so so much" I crashed my lips to his. My tongue slipped into his mouth earning a moan from him. Our make out was soon ended when we heard the front door unlock. My parents came home with food. "Wanna stay for dinner" I looked up at him. "Sure" he smiled wrapping an arm around my waist. Dinner was good. We had cheese burgers and pasta. It felt good having luke by my side again. I never want to have a fight with him again, even though I know we will have small arguments because that's what couples do sometimes, right? After dinner luke and I decided to go get frozen yogurt at this little shop over in downtown. "I'm glad everything is okay between us" I said eating my cookies and cream frozen yogurt. "I am too, I'm so sorry baby" luke reached for my hand. Our fingers laced together as he rubbed his thumb across the back of my hand comfortingly. "I forgive you" I leaned across the table to kiss him. 

*later that night in Katie's apartment* 

I was cuddled into lukes side. My head resting on his chest my fingers tracing patterns across him. I was so in love with luke, words can't describe. This boy is my whole world and I can't picture my life without him. He gives me butterflies in my stomach 24/7 and he makes me really happy. I snuggled closer to him burying my face further into his chest. "I love you" luke kissed my head. "I love you more" I kissed his collarbone. "Luke" "yeah babe" "I have to tell you something important" my grip tightened around him. "What is it" luke began rubbing slow circles on my back. " I had a relapse, after the fight" my eyes started to water. "No. Baby, you don't need to hurt yourself over an asshole like me" he pulled me even closer to him holding me tight against his chest. "I'm sorry" I mumbled into his neck. "Don't be sorry, you're okay, I've got you" he rocked me back and forth in his arms kissing my head. I ended up falling asleep in lukes arms. I haven't slept for 3 days so I had a pretty good sleep that night. 

"Good morning sunshine" luke said as I opened my eyes. "Morning luke" I giggled.  He's so adorable. "Can we have a lazy day" I asked playing with the hair at the nape of his neck. "Yeah" he smiled leaning down to kiss me. luke and I took a shower together, washing each other's hair. After that I wore one of lukes hoodies and his boxers while luke just wore his boxers. I love wearing lukes clothes, they smell nice and there so soft. I pulled out the couch and made it into a bed while luke got the pillows and blankets. He lined up the pillows and spread out 3 big blankets. I laid across them patting the spot next to me signaling for luke to join me. Luke got under the sheets pulling me to his chest turning on Netflix. "What should we watch" luke asked me. "Can we watch a horror film" "babe that's an excuse to cuddle with me" he winked causing the both of us to giggle. "No I'm serious luke, let's watch a horror movie" I kept laughing. "You pick" he said handing me the remote. I ended up picking paranormal activity 2. Lame, i know, but it's scary enough for me. I ended up hiding my face in lukes chest for most of the movie. "That was a total excuse to hide your face in my chest baby, don't lie"  he whispered in my ear smirking. "stop making me blush luke" I playfully smacked his chest nuzzling my face into his neck, giggling at my boyfriend. We watched white chicks next. I've never seen luke laugh so hard in my life. He's so adorable. "luke" I giggled grabbing his face kissing him. "I love you so much baby girl" luke mumbled against my lips. "Can we go to the bridge"  I ask resting my forehead against his. "Yeah" he smiled lacing my fingers with his. "Wait, let me change first" I tell him going to my room. "You look fine like that" he said. "I'm not going out in your boxers babe" I laughed. He chuckled to himself going to change in proper clothes. I kept his hoodie on throwing on some leggings and a pair of vans while luke wore a maroon hoodie and his black skinny jeans. We walked in comfortable silence for about 15 minutes and we sat on a bench over looking the water below us. I rested my head against his shoulder breathing in his scent. 10 minutes later my phone begins to ring, it was my mom. "Hello" "Katie, dad is in the hospital" 

A/N: major cliffhanger!!! I'm going to try and be more consistent at updates, senior year is stressful )-: