more than this // lrh

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I felt a whole lot better the next day. I was still sniffly and I was coughing but I felt better. I'm officially moving in with Luke. I plan on going back to my moms today with Luke to get the rest of my things. I've been with Luke for 9 months now but moving in with him never felt more right. At around 2 in the afternoon is when I decided to get the rest of my things. Luke carried a duffle bag while I rolled my empty suitcase to my moms place. I know she's working so this should be quick and easy. I find the spare key in the flower pot outside the door and let myself in. "Mom" I called out to make sure she wasn't home, which after I said it I think about how badly it would've turned out if she was home. Luke quickly threw all my clothes in the duffle bag from my closet while I put the 3 other pairs of shoes in my suitcase and emptied out the dresser. I then proceeded to stuff all 10 books and a few CDs in my bag. I stuffed my computer and charger in the suitcase along with my makeup and all my toiletries. It's suprisingly all managed to fit. When we finished I locked the door with my spare key placing it back in the flower pot when I heard someone clear their throat from behind, it was my mom. A sighed escaped my lips as I tugged on the hoodie of lukes that I wore. "Just take this back, I'll be fine" I said softly. "Okay, baby, be careful" Luke kissed my forehead before walking off. I watched Luke get in the elevator before speaking. "Hey mom" I said shakily. "What were you and Luke doing" she has her arms folded over her chest. "Getting my stuff, I'm moving in with him" I tugged at lukes hoodie, feeling the anxious feeling in my stomach. "You can't move in with him, it's not healthy" her voice at an eerie calm. "Mom, I don't know if you remember what you told me 3 weeks ago but it wasn't good and you're lucky I'm alive, you can give Luke credit for it and I just need him right now, it's what's best for me and my mental health, and I love him" tears stung my eyes but I remained strong. "Well I'm not allowing it you need to be home, you've been with Luke for far too long it's time to come home" "it will never been time to come home, this isn't home, tell your daughter to kill herself  is not home, I don't need this, I need to be with Luke, he makes me happy, I just need time, you'll always be my mom, but I need time on my own" a let a few tears make their way down my cheeks. I walked away from my mom, I couldn't stop the tears from falling. I let myself in lukes apartment dropping my bag to the floor. "Baby" Luke called out. "What's wrong" "my life" I said shakily. I wrapped my arms around him resting my head against his chest allowing my body to relax. I felt his hand make soothing circles on my back. "I'm here, everything will be alright" he whispered calming me down. "I need you" I said into his chest. "You'll always have me, always" he kissed my head. "Cuddle with me" I asked motioning towards the couch. Luke nodded removing his shirt and jeans, myself removing the leggings I was wearing allowing the hoodie cover my underwear. Luke got under the comforter lifting it up for me to join him. I slipped in next him allowing him to pull me into him resting my head against his warm, bare chest. "I love you so much" I said resting my arm across his torso. "I love you even more baby" Luke pulled me even closer, kissing my mouth.