Surfing with Eli

Chapter 17

Luka:

I hate myself. Those three words played over and over in my head as everything around me unraveled. I hate myself.

Eli was leaning back on his elbows shirtless waiting on me to make a move. He was my friend and I wanted to have sex with him, this was so messed up this was wrong.

Kissing was one thing but this was way more serious. This should have been more thought out and talked about before it actually happened.

 I couldn't stamp out all the feelings welling up inside me, so many damn emotions all at once. Do it, my head yelled at me, just fucking do it. Screw him and then you'll be done with it, the feelings will end.

I pressed the ends of my palms into my eyes, just do it already! My hands flew down to my jeans and made quick work of undoing my belt and zipper.

As I stepped out of them I made the mistake of glancing at Eli, he was watching me with lust and something more... something that shouldn't have been there for me to see.

I moved over to him in two strides and crashed my lips onto his, roughly shoving my tongue inside his mouth and tasting every single inch.

Our teeth chinked and at one point I had bit into his bottom lip hard enough to draw blood. I couldn't focus on it long enough to apologize because his hands shoved their way into my hair pulling at the ends in fistfuls causing a loud groan to tear through my body.

I was becoming less and less gentle as a frenzy washed over me, I ripped down his zipper and tugged his pants down tossing them on the other side of the room.

I was being too rough, too animalistic. This was what I was like when I was really out of control when the anger was just too unbearable.

To my surprise though Eli was not complaining or had a look of pain on his face, he seemed eager for what was going on. I stood in between his legs sucking his neck hard leaving my marks all along him, down his neck across his collarbone on his chest.

I bit and sucked and scratched and all the while he moaned and pulled me in closer wrapping his legs around me so that our hips banged together.

I was desperate to get him out of my system along with my rage but he was desperate only for me, I was a sorry excuse of a friend. He should hate me.

I gripped his muscular thighs and tossed him onto the bed with me on top. Eli began to arch his hips up grinding against me for friction as his breaths came out faster. He was gazing into my eyes as I complied with his movements making him gasp and screw his eyes closed.

Reaching down between our bodies I palmed him over his boxers and bent my head down to suck on the ball of his nipple. Eli arched his back as his hands clawed down mine and slipped into my own boxers grabbing my ass.

Suddenly I was being flipped over onto my back with him straddling my hips and pinning my hands above my head. This was it, this was when he should have told me enough and left my room.

That is not what happened though, instead he leaned his head down and licked from below my bellybutton to my neck causing a shiver to run through me. He flicked his tongue over each of my nipples before sitting back up and removing my boxers.

My breathing was laboured and my hands were gripping the sheets of my bed as he had his way with me. Eli swiped his tongue over the tip of my cock licking up the precum before sinking his warm mouth down the length.

My hips bucked on their own accord making him choke slightly before digging his nails into my skin and shoving my hips down to stay in place.

Curses tore out through my teeth one after another as he bobbed his head and cupped me. I was about to reach for him but the sudden feeling of one of his fingers entering inside me made my eyes roll back in my head.