Surfing with Eli

Chapter 19

Eli:

I had developed my own mantra, don't kiss him, don't kiss him, don't kiss him.

Seeing him had been like sticking my tongue in an electrical socket, I wasn't sure what this was about. He was so confusing, and now I knew better. I wasn't going to fall for his game this time, I wouldn't let things get as far.

I was going to be abstinent where Luka was concerned. I only wished that he didn't make me so turned on. Ugh! And at a time like this when I was supposed to be mad and cold but it was taking all I had to keep my face from being red!

I fisted my hand and brought it up to my mouth, he was going to see right through me. "So, who was that guy at the bonfire?" he asked while keeping his gaze fixed on the road ahead of him.

Was he jealous? I wasn't stupid I knew that he most likely had been with someone else since me, it hurt to think of it though. Perhaps he felt the same way if I had been with someone as well. But I hadn't been able to move on so fast.

"I don't know, I just met him tonight" I shrugged peering out the window.

"Do you... like him?" I tried to hold in a laugh. Luka Holton, twenty years old was acting like a schoolboy over me. "Who knows, I just met him" I replied in a detached tone, I wasn't going to forgive him soon, I wanted to make him sweat, and I was also still upset about it all.

I think I was losing my mind however because I could have sworn I could smell his scent and feel his warmth even though he wasn't close to me.

"And how do you feel about me?" he gripped the steering wheel so tightly that his knuckles turned white. "It's nothing positive right now" I told him giving him a sideways glance, I seen him wince slightly due to my words.

I should have taken a small victory about this but it was impossible to. He was always so sharp around the edges and tough, but right now he was just sad and sorry.

Within no time we were pulling up in my driveway, "I'll see you around right?" he turned to face me this time and my mouth fell open. He was blushing. He was actually blushing!

"Uh, I don't know really if that's such a good idea" I said moving to open my door and get out. "It's probably not... but I'll be around anyway" he said as I past his window and headed up to the door of my house.

Should I have informed him that I was leaving in a few weeks to go on that school trip? I owed him nothing, but a part of me didn't want him to come around and find that I was just gone.

"Why is everything so messed up?" I mumbled walking up the stairs to my bedroom. I walked over to my room window and found him still parked where I left him.

I could see him resting his forehead on the wheel in defeat, his shoulders sagging. I held my head in my hands and breathed deeply in, why did I have to be so turned on by seeing him be a wreck due to me and some other guy.

Without thinking about it I grabbed my phone and dialed, I was going to be so mad at myself about this tomorrow.

He picked up on the first ring, "Eli?" he breathed as I watched him from my window. "The front door is open and no one is home, you have two minutes to get up to my room" I hung up and sat on my bed.

After tonight this was it, I would say goodbye and move on with someone else. I heard the sound of the front door being slammed shut before footsteps came up the staircase and down the hall to my room.

He came in slowly as if he thought I was going to yell at him for this. I stood up with my back to him as I tugged my shirt off and shucked off my jeans. I said nothing as I got into bed, under the covers as he stood there watching me with his hands fisted at his sides.