My Life As Shy

Chapter 7 : Play With My Emtions

I just got done taking a shower I got on instagram & got a new follower it was the boy cam from the game that night... he so fine but he dm me & asked for my number I gave it to him & we started texting until I fall asleep

As the days go on ray still treats me like a stanger at school but when nobodys around it feels like hes mine again idk how to explain this feeling that I have it's inbetween hurt & love did I tell you we have this chill period together now it's so awkward being in there with him when we don't talk in school I mean we play around but it's not normal me and jewel don't fw liah & we barley fw jordan now because he's always with liah so it's just been basically me well I got close to cam we're best friends now even though he likes me

Home
Dad : princess I have some news
Me: yes
Dad: we're moving not too far but your not gonna be able to go to Jackson next year it's out of your school district
Me: what dad that's my senior year I don't wanna move schools
Dad: I'll think about it

Us moving I never thought we would this is horrible ... for the last week we been packing & moving today is my last day here I was outside with gabby because she wanted to spend my last day with me tyler came & told her they gotta go in

Gabby : no princess *hugs me*
Me: I'll walk you home

I walk her home and she starts boo hoo crying when she gets to the front door

Gabby : princess
Me: *hugs her* gabby I promise I won't forget about you ok
Tyler: *comes out the house* is she crying
Me: yes leave her alone
His dad: come in the house
Tyler : Gabby crying cause it's shy last day here she moving
His dad: tell her get in her
I walk in the house with gabby and say hi
His mom : today's your last day
Me: yes ma'am
His mom: where u moving
Me: behind McDonalds up there
His mom: o way up there
Me: yes ma'am
His mom : well u can come vist
Me: ok

I say bye and ray follows me out the door and closes it I look up at him
Me: are you gonna miss me
Ray : *shakes his head yes*
Me: *hugs him*
Ray: don't cry
Me: I can't help it *starts crying*

He hugs me tighter and I wipe my tears I look up at him and kiss him

Me: bye
Him: bye

I run home... well my old home and get in my car and leave the new house was dead big I loved it but I missed my old neighborhood doe I meant this girl Layla she's really cool and helps me with all my problems I finally told ray I was done because how he acted in school and I couldn't deal with his mixed emotions

SCHOOL

Layla :.princess
Me: *hugs her* hey layla
Jewel: hey princess
Me: hola boo *hugs jewel*
Layla: I'll see u 3rd period I'm meeting brandon in the library
Me: bye
Jewel: I don't wanna leave you but tae wanted me to skip first period with him
Me: it's ok jewel do u *hugs her*
Jewel: k love u bye
Me: love u too

I sit by myself at breakfast and was on my phone I hear laughing so I look and it's liah vicky and taylor I roll my eyes and look back at my phone

Taylor: aww little miss princess don't have friends
Me: *ignores her*
Ivy: she act like she can't hear nobody *sits by me*
Me: may I help yall
Taylor: girl cut the attitude
Me: negative first off I don't even like none of yall so my attitude on full affect so wassup
Ivy: *gets up* bitch u ain't gon do shit cause u on the track team
Me: That's the only thing saving yall asses *gets in her face* but it won't save yall for long and watch that b word *walks away*

The rest of the day goes by smoothly i couldn't wait till track practice I was the 2nd fastest girl & we was running relays today my favorite... did I forget to say rays on the team too ugh hard to avoid that mf

After practice: I'm so hyped for the track meet Thursday I can't wait I go to the bus area
Brandon: princess u got money
Me: for me
Brandon: come on I'm hungry asf get me a honey bun
Me: *walks in the class room*

My heart stopped and I couldn't breathe I see ray all over this girl nichole wtf I walk out pissed asf
Brandon : what's wrong

I don't say nothing

Layla: hey.... woah princess what's wrong
Me : why tf is ray messing with Nichole tf
Layla: she a thot
Me: I know

I grab my keys from my bag & walk to my car
Layla: *kisses Brandon & runs after me* can I hop in
Me: of course

We drive home

Me: I don't get it... wtf was that oml if he talking to her ima fucking flip out
Layla: just chill he not even worth it
Me: but he still has my heart layla
Layla: I know boo it's gon take some time to get over him Ik

The next day I hear so many rumors of how Nichole trying to talk to him and they was talking before all this shit is pissing me off I even ask ray friend jacob & he talking about they in some group chat and Nichole was saying sum about how ray didn't answer her question.... I'm guessing she asked him out

Layla: princess
Me: I don't get it he telling me he don't want a gf so wtf u talking to somebody that everybody talked to... wtf she got that I don't... why drop a princess to chase glitter
Layla: I don't know boys are dumb I been wondering the same thing when Brandon was talking to her she was sitting on his lap kissing him and taking pictures
Me : let that bitch kiss him ima ask her how my pussy taste
Layla: *laughing* princess u nasty asf
Me: but no fr if they talk or go out omg lay u just don't know ima lose it oml
Layla: I know but she a senior she finna leave so
Me: but still

So we at practice doing relays and Ray talks to me
Ray: shy u finna lose
Me: well duhh I gotta run against Brandon
ray: *laughing*

After practice ray comes and hugs me
Me: ewww me u stink
Ray: so do u
Me: *laughs* negative

I lowkey miss him but I know I should get over him but I can't I can't that nigga has my heart and soul without him I'm lost but I have to try and stay strong because I'm not gonna look like nobody's fool
The next day at school I over hear jacob and ray talking and heard him I be saying on snap chat that I miss him and stuff and he said he done with me... when I heard that my heart dropped ... but at least I finally know he done with me I hate to hear it but now I really gotta get over him if he wanna be done with me to talk to a thot fuck that shit oml it's fuck that nigga

Tbc