The Imperfect Truth of Diamond Hearts {Kellin Quinn Sequel}

5 - Count On Me

    We were driving to the doctor for the umpteenth time this month, going for my regular checkups to make sure I was healthy or whatever.  As much as I wanted to keep track of my health, it was still a pain in the ass to go every two weeks when I was only three months along.  Okay we had only gone to one appointment but we hadn’t even listened to the baby’s heartbeat yet and I couldn’t figure out why.  At least today the doctor promised that we would have a sonogram to see how strong the little tyke‘s heart was.  I was anxious to hear the sound of our child, worried and concerned that I would miscarry again.  The doc said not to be so uptight about the pregnancy because it caused stress on the baby, but I couldn’t help it.  Since losing our first child became the reason Kellin left me, I couldn’t help feeling my heart tear a little at the idea of losing the baby again.

    But Kellin was so damn happy, it was a little annoying.  Maybe it was just the hormones talking but still.  He was practically giddy every day.  I hadn’t realized that becoming a dad would make him so damn incandescent.  Some days it made me feel like I was glowing but others, he made me want to strangle him.  The guys didn’t help either.  When men throw a girl a baby shower, you know something is wrong.  There were all manners of horrible, adult things at that party with gifts that made me angry and full of laughter at the same time.

    Definitely the hormones causing me to be insane.

    Kellin turned the corner, pulling into the doctor’s office parking lot before releasing his seatbelt.  He turned to me with an avid smile, bright greenish eyes glowing as he seemed to be illuminated from the inside out.  I giggled and leaned over to kiss him, my growing bump now starting to become a bit of a pain.  I felt like I was waddling around and getting fatter than I should but the doctor said it was normal.  Still I resembled a cow at this point and I wondered how my husband could look at me with such zeal and lust.  I chortled at the idea of him being attracted to this fat suit.

    “Come on babe,” he said, “Let’s go see our little girl.”

    “Or our little man?” I added with a sly smirk.  He chuckled and shrugged his shoulders.

    “Only if you want a demon for a child,” he teased, stepping out of the car and shutting the door.  I watched as he came around, practically skipping, and scolded me as I went for the door handle.  I’m telling you, he was freaking overly happy, like the sunshine was coming out of his ass or something.

    “I can open the car door you know,” I growled, though it was more jesting than irritated.  He pouted.

    “Jeez babe, I’m just trying to be nice,” he uttered pathetically, making my heart squeeze in my chest.  I sighed and stepped out onto the pavement, wrapping my arms around his middle.

    “I know,” I whispered, “I’m sorry I’m so snappy.”

    “It’s okay,” he replied, “I know it’s the crazy thing inside of you talking, not my gorgeous wife.”  I blushed and smacked him gently on the shoulder, watching as the mirth played across his features attractively.  That long tangle of dark hair framed his face, made him look like some sort of angel.  I could only imagine what a miniature version of this man would look like, the very idea giving me chills and tendrils of tears.  Kellin raised a brow.

    “Come on you big lug,” I called, “Let’s go see our little monster in action shall we?”  He kissed my forehead and wrapped an arm around my waist, fingers stretching over the growing bump on my lower abdomen.  It was a loving caress, one that told me he was not just appealing to me, but to the tiny human budding inside my belly.  I glanced up at him and watched his lips pull back over his teeth in a goofy grin.