Maya and Riley

I see It all now that you're gone

                Its been 2 weeks since I hung out with Shawn . Riley doesnt eat near me making excuses she ate before. She hasnt cuddled or kissed me in awhile. Somethings wrong , Shes too Thin , Something is really really wrong. We wake up and she smiles. Okay so maybe she just isnt Hungry. She looks happy , We get ready and eat before going to school. 1st period with Mr.Matthews we actually are quite focused on work , Riley looks like her usual self . I turn back and see missy staring at Riley. I grunt , As long as shes not mean to riley. Its a tuesday so we need to hand in our homework from yesterday which I of course dont have . Riley glances and meets missy eyes and Riley suddenly looks scared. Is there something going on she won't tell me about? I hope she'd tell me if Missy bullied her. Mr.Matthews announces a Pop quiz, Which I actually think I didnt do too bad. Once class ends me and Riley go our seperate ways and I continue onto our class , As I turn around I see missy trying to talk to Riley. I cant hear the conversation but I can tell its not good.

    Lunch comes around and I try to find Riley but I can't I ask Cory, He tells me that Riley felt sick and went home. My throat feels like its closing i cant swallow something seems wrong. I run out and hurry out of the school , I pratically run to the subway and then to her house . I open the door and call for Riley, When she doesnt answer I feel the tears start in my eyes. I dont know why but I think I know what happened. I race into Rileys room And shes not there , I already know exactly where to go , The bathroom. I race in and I cant breathe , My Riley is in the bathtub Looking like all Bones in a bath stained red The tears still on her cheeks. I call 911 I cant beleive... Her arms look they were cut much before today too .  How could I not see this , How could I not see that the love of my life was in so much pain. I snap back to reality and im holding up Riley's head as I hear the stomping of the First Responders , A man with a clipboard starts to ask me what happened then looked at the scence and decided to hold back. Thank god I cant say .....She ....She tried to Kill herself.....The girl I love tried to die. She doesnt realise how much that would ruin me ... Wait ! is she gonna be okay. I start sobbing and ask them. An older woman tells me they'll do as much as they can but it doesn't look good . I give her Riley's parents Numbers to call them and explain as im in no condition to explain that their happy go lucky daughter may have just taken her own life. I Keep sobbing I love her how could she do this to me , To everyone, I see a Note next to the sink and read it

       Dear Whoever finds this,

           Im sorry I know Your gonna think its your fault it's not

Missy Bullied me she told me things Like maya didnt really love me it was all fake

I beleived her , I Know Maya youre my best friend but did you really love me like a lover

I started to take everyting you said into a box and made it seem like you didnt love me

But i loved you ... I love you. That cant ever change. I miss when I was oblivous to everything and i was happy.  

I stopped eating and i hurt myself everywhere i could and prayed you wouldnt notice.

Goodbye, Riley

I start crying and after everything is a blur.