Life After An Eating Disorder

Rae's birthday

Rae's mother picked me up the next day to go out for her birthday. This is probably the only thing that's kept me going all week.
We arrive at the bowling alley and separate into teams. Rae and I on one side, and Makayla and Haymitch on the other.
Throughout the whole game, Rae and I couldn't stop staring at this one guy. Damnnnn he's hotttt. "I darn you to talk to him." Rae says out of nowhere. I shrug. "Alright."
"HiSoIKnowThatIDon'tKnowYouButIJustWantedToSayThatIFindYouHighlyAttractive." I say all in one breath right before I run away.
"You did it." Rae questions and I nod while laughing.
Rae and I creamed them and won by about twenty points once we calculate out final scores. "You know, that guy is definitely looking for you." She points out and I roll my eyes. Who'd want to find you?! I tell the voice in my head to shut up. "You don't have to believe me, I'm just stating a fact." Rae says with a wink. I roll my eyes as we leave the bowling alley.
After we bowl, we go out to dinner. I can feel my heart rate increasing rapidly. I-Can't-Breathe.
"What are you getting, AJ?" Rae's mother asks me. "Oh, I'm not very hungry, thank you though." She sighs, "I'm not going to let you starve. Why don't you get some soup?" She suggests and I nod.
I eat my soup as I watch my friends eat mouth-watering pasta. But damn. This soup is pretty darn good.

We all go back to Rae's house.... expect for Haymitch, he had to leave since he's a boy.
"My sister used to be really fat." Rae says while looking at photo albums with Makayla and I. "But she dedicated a lot of time and hard work and lost weight. Now she's thin as a rail." I wish I could be like her. "I want to do that some day.... I've always been a bit chubby." I say with a fake smile. Makayla and Rae give each other the look. "What?" Makayla rolls her eyes. "You've never been chubby!" She yells nicely. I look down and smile. Yes I have, I still am.