You make it so, you make it so,
You make it so easy
This letting go is so beautiful,
Cause you make it so easy,
To fall so hard, to fall so hard
-So Easy by Phillip Phillips
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"H-How long have you been there?" Lena asked.
Matalim ang tingin na ibinigay nito sa kanya. "Long enough," he answered coldly.
"Cy, what you heard-"
He held up his hand, stopping her from speaking further. "Not now, Lena. I'm tired."
"But-"
He walked passed her. Pumasok ito sa kwarto nito at pataklab na isinara ang pinto. Her heart sank. He didn't hear enough. If he did, then he wouldn't be this angry.
She walked to the door of his room and raised her hand to knock. Pero pinigilan niya ang sarili. Baka may masabi pa siyang mas ikagalit nito. Baka lumala lang ang sitwasyon. Her fears quickly took over, and she ended up sulking on the bed, inside her room, thinking about how everything went wrong in just a snap.
That night was torture. She was so depressed, but she couldn't sleep because she's alone. Kahit magdamag na siyang umiyak ay hindi pa rin siya nakatulog.
She ruined everything again. Why does she always have to fuck things up?
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The next morning, Lena learned that Martin and Lacey were gone. They still have one day before they head back to the city and she was thinking of sorting things out with Cyrus, but he didn't want to talk. He just told her to pack her things. They headed home after breakfast.
Sa kotse, plinano rin niyang makipag-usap, pero nagpatugtog naman ito ng malakas. She wasn't assertive enough to tell him to turn it off or turn it off herself. Cowardice ruled over again, as always. By the time they arrived at her house, masamang-masama na ang loob niya rito. He didn't even give her the chance to explain.
"Ang unfair nila, Bai," sumbong niya sa alaga habang yakap-yakap ito. She didn't want to cry but she couldn't help it. Akala niya ay ayos na. Bakit naman naging ganoon? He's the one who told her to speak up to not be misunderstood but why won't he listen?
Bailey licked her face to give her comfort. Hinigpitan niya ang yakap sa alaga.
"What should I do? Tawagan ko pa? Pero baka naman hindi nya sagutin," himutok niya. But she took her phone anyway. She dialed his number and waited for him to pick up. Nakailang ring na ang phone nito pero hindi pa rin nito sinasagot. "See? He wouldn't answer," she told Bailey.
Sana talaga ay hindi na lamang niya kinausap si Martin. Things became worse because of that. Not only did Lacey and Cyrus misinterpret things, but the paparazzi also made mountains out of molehills again. Somebody took a picture of her and Martin and plastered the wrong caption, misinforming anyone who sees it.
Ang nakakainis pa roon, even her art were receiving hate. Dati naman ay walang masamang comments sa IG niya. Ngayon puro 'Ang pangit ng gawa mo' o 'Hindi ka naman magaling'. May naliligaw pa minsan na 'Malandi ka!'. Tapos kinikwestyon din kung bakit nagawa niya iyon sa kapatid niya. Ni hindi man lamang inalam ng mga ito ang buong kwento. That's how people usually are in social media. They get a portion of the story and then they'll judge you as if they know every detail.
Of course, they all sided with Lacey. Masama ang dating nila ni Martin sa mga tao. Pero ang pinakamasaklap ay iyong kumento n asana si Cyrus at Lacey na lang daw. Mas bagay daw ang dalawa.
That hurt the most.
Since Cyrus wouldn't talk to her and Lacey was nowhere to be found, and practically every fan of her sister hates her, wala siyang nagawa sa bahay kundi magmukmok. She ordered two boxes of pizza earlier, just so she'll have something to eat until dinner.
