Save You -One Direction fanfic

The Letter

That night as I drove I didn't stop. I just kept driving. I wanted to be home in my own bed. I kept driving well into the next day. I only stopped for food, gas, and bathroom breaks. I blasted my music to drown out the sounds of my own cries. My own mother didn't want me because I was spending 3 weeks with my boyfriend who I never saw. I wanted to stop crying but I never did. I cried about everything. My mom telling me to leave and never come back, Nick dying, my depression, never seeing Niall, and how I was just sad. I didn't know why I had to have this life. I started to wish I had never gotten sad. Maybe then my life would be good. I'd still have friends, my mom wouldn't hate me, I wouldn't have waited so long to go home, and maybe I would be happy.

When I finally got back to my apartment building it was 2:30 in the afternoon on Friday. As I walked up the steps I saw Tiffany coming down them. I froze not wanting her to see me. I started running down the stairs.

"Sarah? Sarah!" I heard her call after me. I froze.

"Why are you here? You weren't suppose to come home till Monday." She asked looking at me confused.

"M-my mom told me to leave when I told her I wasn't coming home for Christmas. Then we got in a fight about how I should choose family over a boy. And I said some stuff about how she failed to realize what was wrong with me and that Niall saved me. Then she called him stupid. And I left. She said if I did that I was never welcome back." I said feelings tears well up in my eyes again.

"Oh girly I'm so sorry. Come on let's get you cleaned up. I'm going over to the twins place now so we'll clean you up and take you over." She said putting her arm around my shoulder and walking me back up the steps.

After my shower I put on a pair of jeans and an oversized t shirt. I let my hair go natural and didn't bother with makeup. Tiffany drove my car over to the twins.

"What's this?" She asked me holding up the letter.

"Nick wrote it to me a few days before the accident. He never mailed it because he couldn't find a stamp. So his mom gave it to me." I said taking it out of her hand. I ran my finger over my address feeling the indents from the pen.

"Did you read it yet?" She asked turning on to the twins street.

"No. I got it yesterday." I said sniffling.

"Well do you want to read it?" She asked.

"Y-yes." I said.

"Then we'll read it today." She said parking the car. The twins still technically lived with their mom but they lived in the guest house. As we walked past Jen's house I saw the twins house a few feet away. I saw Zach standing in the window looking out. His eyes slowly met mine and his jaw dropped. He turned his head and suddenly the front door was ripped open and Logan came sprinting to me. He ran up to me and took me in his arms. That's when I started to cry again. I felt my body going limp and he caught me. Logan picked me up bridal style and carried me in to the house.

"Shhh shhh shhhh." He kept saying into my hair as he sat me down on the couch.

"What happened?" Logan and Noah asked at the same time. I sat up an told them the whole story.

"That bitch!" Zach yelled which surprised us all.

"It's not fair you can't do this to your child!" Noah yelled.

"It's so unfair." Logan said still rubbing my back.

"T-thanks guys." I said.

"Her name is Noel I had a dream about her....." My head shot up as my phone started to ring.

"H-hi babe." I said trying to calm down.

"Sarah what's wrong?" Niall asked sounding concerned. I started to cry again.

"Sarah speak to me please. Tell me what's wrong!" Niall yelled. I handed Logan my phone and he told Niall the whole story. I took my phone back.

"Sarah I'm so sorry. Do you not want to go now? We don't have to if its going to cause so many problems." Niall said.

"No I want to go. I want to meet your mom and brother." I said.

"But Sar-" Niall started before I cut him off.

"Niall my family was never there for me. You were. I want to go home with you. I don't care about my family. I want to go with you. The more time I spend away from them the better." I said.

"Are you sure?" Niall asked again.

"Yes. I still smell like pot from Parker and my mom basically told me to go fuck myself for being in love. I want to go to a nice place with you." I said.

"Ok. Are you sure?" He asked again.

"Niall you ask me that one more time and I will jump through the phone and slap you!" I said.

"Ok fine. Are you ok now?" He asked me.

"Yes. Thanks. You make everything better." I said.

"I have to go. I have an interview now but I love you Sarah." He said.

"I love you too." I said hanging up the phone.

"What the hell was that?!?" Noah yelled when I put the phone down.

"What?" I asked.

"You went from emotionally unstable to perfectly fine in a 5 minute span of time!" He yelled at me.

"Noah lay off! It's love" Tiffany said.

"I don't know it's just when ever I talk to Niall he makes me realize that what I'm doing is right for me. And that things are ok." I said looking down at my phone.

"Well gag me with a spoon!" Noah said making me laugh.

As the afternoon went on I became happy again. Everyone cheered me up.

"What's this?" Logan asked. He had pulled the envelope out of my back pocket.

"It's a letter from Nick." I said taking it from his hand.

"Well read it!" He said.

"I don't know if I'm ready yet." I said.

"Sarah you are never going to be ready. But you should do it now. We are all here for you." Zach said. I nodded my head and opened to envelope. I started to read the letter and I felt pains in my stomach.

"Hey pickles,

I don't know why I'm writing you a letter on my mom's pretty pick stationary instead of sending you an email but here goes nothing. I just wanted to say how proud of you I am. After everything you have been through you are still able to smile. I wish I could say I could do that but I know that I wouldn't be able to. I'm so happy you found Niall too. I'm happy you guys are back together, as that you are happy. I'm happy for you. I still don't know why I'm writing this letter but I am. I just wanted you to know how proud I am of you. I can't wait to see you soon. I can't wait to have a few more summer times with you. I love you pickles. You are my best friend, and my first love. Again I'm so proud of how far you have come. Love your best friend in the world Nick."

I felt the tears falling down my face. For once they weren't sad one though. They were happy tears. That's all I had wanted someone to tell me. That they were proud of me. I felt Tiffany rub my back.

"He's proud of me." I said.

"We all are Sarah." Tiffany said.

"Thank you guys." I said pulling them in for a hug. My life had done a complete 180 in the past few hours. It felt good too.

~~~~ it sucks. I can't think of much to write about but I know there are only a few more chapters left until the end of this book. There is going to be a sequel so get ready! I love you all!~~~~