written words

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society has always been a hardship for me.
when you're not so close to adultery yet, it is not that difficult to face.
but that doesn't mean it is not difficult at all.
i am a stubborn person, i can admit that to myself.
i cannot let someone's ignorant opinion pass by me, especially if they are not close to me.
maybe this is why i have always struggled with myself.
i am not close to myself.
society has crushed me, and due to it's rules i still must put up a smile, no matter the acting behind it.
i still must hide my tears.
i still must cover my dark expressions with a bright smile, no matter the thickness of the mask.
and yet through all the courage it took to put up that smile, i cannot find the courage to do anything else.

yes frowns may take forty something muscles and yes smiles may only take three or four but sometimes i need to frown and if i cannot i will crush myself completely.

because after all, society is crumbling down to pieces. and i am crumbling along with it.