N O S T A L G I C (incomplete)

11- Monday buzz

I lay in my bed not eager to face yet another day of school. I don't wanna get up and go to a place where I'm seen as pig skin, nerd, weird ass and all the other labels i have written across my forhead. It's Monday bumday again and I've been ignoring Brett for a full week and seeing Bailey and Brett together kills me everytime but I am still tryna understand why. The only way I bring myself out of bed is remembering that I only have another year and couple of months before I go to college. So far Victoria's scar has healed and she still hasn't done anything to me but our Valentine's ball is coming up and my mother is forcing me to go. Dammit. I went shopping for the first time on Saturday and bought myself a black leather tights, oversized denim jacket and grey T with black and white platform kicks. This is my outfit choice for today which I feel really comfort in. I touch the back of my head feeling if my knob is gone and it almost is.

I put my earphones in ready to listen to some EDM on our way to school. Bailey and I cant even sit at the same breakfast table anymore so I eat breakfast in the car. When we arrive at school we jump out and as usual I head to my locker. As i walk i look down at my feet, not taking heid of where I'm walking and i bump right into someone. Dammit I knocked my head again. I let my books fall and press against my forehead till the pain is gone. I look up to see...Brett. We both bend down and grab the same book, our hands touching. I pull away immediately and my stomach begins to tingle. He picks all my books up while mumbling.
"Look I don't want it to end the way it did and I want to keep my end of the deal up so i have come up with a plan." He hands my books to me and before we stand up he kisses me on my forehead saying sorry. There goes my butterflies. He again looks if anyone important is around but the coast is already clear.
"If I'm going to get my grades up you have to help me and I have to help you, so we will meet in private. I will show you where after school." His whispers ring through my ears and my stomach does its dance again.
"Yeah sure." I try to say as bluntly as possible but every bit of me is screaming. Wait screaming what? I think every bit of me is screaming that i like him. My body starts inching toward him and then he just buries me in a warm snuggly hug.
"I missed you too Astin."
"I think I figured it out Brett." I whisper slowly.
"Figured out that you maybe kinda like me." He whispers back with a spark of hope.
"Yes." I wanna stay in his arms forever but that can't be, so he breaks away, taking my head in his hands and kissing my forehead one last time.
"It'll all work out, I promise."
Now facing me his face is glowing and he gives me a flash of his beautiful teeth. I return it with a small smile when Bailey comes in.
"Morning Brettieee!" She then grabs him and psuhes him up against the lockers, the two of them making spit balls together. My stomach cringes. He seems quite taken aback and just lets her do her thing. When she's done she shoots me down with her eyeballs.
"Dont look at what you can't afford." And a bitchy smile appears on her face.
"You know we share the same mother, so we can afford the same things." I give her one of my 'You're so dumb' smirks before closing my locker and walking away.

My first two lessons were exceptionally boring and I was now at the point where even my stomach was saying so. I walk to the cafeteria. After i have received my food i find a spot next to the 'weird boy' and his imaginary friend. Before I could sit down spaghetti starts travelling down my sweater as Victoria bumps into me. She has a small stain of the tomato sauce on her crop top but most of it is all over my new grey T.
"Watch where you're going Pig Skin!" She snarles.
"Dammit Victoria I wasn't going anywhere I was having myself a seat, you need to try on my specs or something?" I snap back wiping the spaghetti off my T.
I am about to look up but before I know it Victoria is rubbing the rest of the spaghetti in my hair. I try to hit her hands away but she is having fun creating her mantle piece for her fire place. I can't take it anymore and i push her so hard but luckily Dwane, who's behind her catches her. All beady little eyes are on us now. Victoria doesn't even take a minute to think before she smacks me. This is her way of getting back at me. She then pushes me so hard that i hit the ground with such impact my hip becomes numb. She then kneels over me and punches me in my jaw.
"This is what you get for smacking me you fucking blind bitch!!!"
People start to gather around us with cell phones out. She then goes in for another punch. My vision starts to go blury and the pain becomes a numbness while the loud chatter becomes silent whispers. There's a taste of blood in my mouth after she punches me in the lip. My eyelids are about to droop closed when i feel her pick my head up about to bang it against the ground. But before my head could make any bit of contact with the ground someone calls to Victoria to stop. She gets up off me and turns around. My eyelids grow heavy and it closes.

I regain my conscienceness slowly and struggle to adjust my eyes to the bright light. I am at home in my bed and the window is open allowing a cool breeze to come in.
"Hello Astin." Brett whispers.
"How are you feeling?"
I try to sit up but unbearable pain heads to my hip. I move my hands over it slowly and lightly.
"Your hip is bruised and so is your face on both sides of your jaw. Your lip is bleeding too." Brett says gently.
I nod my head. My entire head is throbbing now. I open my mouth to speak but it's so dry I cant speak. Brett then hands me a glass of water and my mouth then moistens. Aaaaaaahhh.
"Can you run me a hot bath please?"
And with out any train of thought Brett does it. After the bath is filled I try getting up one more time but its no use. Too much pain.I take off my T shirt but I struggle to take my tights off.
"Here let me help."
Brett lays me all the way to the back then holds at the elastic on top and gently pulls it off. I am now only in my underwear.
"It's okay I will keep my undies on." I could sense his unease. He picks me up like a groom would pick up his bride and puts me in the tub. Then using soap and a face cloth he washes me. My back, my stomach, my arms and my legs, going gently over my bruises. I feel every touch and it's as if he is touching the pain away. I wash my face and then let the water run out. I sit on the side of the bath tub and he picks me up wrapping a towel around me. This whole time neither has spoken a word but have spoken through touch. Not every touch is the same. He sits me upright in my bed and heads to my cupboard. I point out where the pj's are and ironically he picks out my favourite night T. The one with the unicorns and mermaids on it. I dry myself off and try putting on the clean underwear his given me. I have the bra on but i need help with my bottom.
"Brett?" He stares at me awkwardly.
"Eerr I kinda need help."
He nods his head and swallows hard.
"Keep your eyes closed and I will guide you."
He does as he's told. He holds it out and then feels for my toes slipping it all the way up until it gets to the top, i lift my butt a tiny bit off the bed and I guide him.
"There you can open now."
He opens his eyes and gives a small smile revealing his dimple. For a moment his grey eyes penetrate me and it feels like he controls my body. He inches toward me and then seats himself next to me. We sit in silence but the energy that both of us contain can be felt in the air. I open the draw in my bedside table and take out strong ointment. I rub some on my face and it starts to sting the same happens when Brett rubs my other bruises out.
"Brett who told Victoria to stop?"
"Bailey did." He looks like he's proud of her.
"What??!!!!!!!"
"I was shocked as well. When Bailey saw Viccy ontop of you she ran to her before she could bang your head and told her that you're her sister but also your mothers child and that your mother wouldn't want to see you in the hospital. Viccy just smacked her." Brett explains to me lightly.
I just stare at him blankly not even knowing what to say. Just then Bailey walks in. She tries to fight the worry in her face but I can still see it.
"You okay?" She tries to say as bluntly as possible.
"Yeah thanks Bailey."
She says nothing and just walks out.
"So you and Bailey are a thing now?"
He raises his eyebrows and gets up to close the door.
"Look there is no nice way to put it but yes we are a thing."
"What about what you said earlier on?"
"Astin I really like you but we can't be together."
"Its okay i get it you're afraid of the shame."
He just stares at me blankly.
"Thank you for helping me Brett but you can go now."
I can't look at him anymore. I ain't gonna cry I ain't gonna cry I ain't gonna cry, I tell myself.
"If you need anyth-"
"I will be okay thanks"
He takes my hand into his and says something in Spanish. I just stare at him in shock when he kisses my hand and then he goes. I will never want to take my sisters boyfriend away from her. Ever. I will just have to watch the person I actually like, like my sister and respect their relationship.

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