Aphmaus Proposal

Laurance, lord of Phoenix Drop-Laurance

I couldn't see. Everything was white, but then, it turned to utter darkness. Everything around me was black. I started to navigate myself around, feeling my surroundings with my hands out in front of me. I felt like a blind bat going throughout a cave. My hands were touching nothing. Everything felt like thin air, until, I felt a hard object. It was a she. I new it was. I could only imagine who it was. It was Aphmau, without a doubt in my mind. Her mouth made a tiny noise like a gasp, and then another noise escaped her mouth.

"L-Laurance?!"

"Aphmau? What in Irene are you doing here?! I thought you went with Zane after I-I failed." I started to tear up, but quickly came to my senses. Laurance, you can't let your emotions show. You're a guard, not a sappy highschool girl, who can't control her emotions, and lied to someone about her liking someone. Huh, that was oddly specific. I didn't know I came up with such back story's. High-five dude. My eyes started to adust to my surroundings. As I looked up, I saw Aphmau. She was in the same clothes as last time. Her purple and black shirt, like always, but this time, it was more of a ready-for-battle look. Her hazel eyes gleamed in the darkness. Her pupils were dilated.

"Laurance, you don't have to beat yourself up. I was the one who made my decision. It was my choice. No one could have changed my mind." She seemed to talk as if this decision she made was years ago. She always sounded so sophisticated. The only thing that could make me think differently is if she decided to make a pun right now.

"..." good, no pun. "Aphmau, as your guard, I shouldn't have let you go. It's my job to keep you from doing this. I still can't believe I let you do such a thing. Can you please tell me your OK. Please tell me you don't regret your decision. I couldn't live with myself if I new I let you leave for nothing."

Aphmau stood there in silence. She was unresponsive. She couldn't think of a word to say, so she resorted to the one word she always does.

"Laurance." Her voice was faint. It almost sounded like a whisper.

"That also reminds me. I can't be lord. I know that was your request, but I can't fulfill it. I am a guard. I was made to protect the people who do. I can't lead people who I know I will disappoint in the end. I know that in the end, all I would do is cause it to fall, and crumble to the ground. Everything you did, everything it meant, and held would be lost because of me. I have already lost the most important thing that matters to me. I don't want the one thing she wants to stand to be burnt to ashes because of me. I was thinking, and I thought that a person who was meant to be lord should lead. Someone like-"

"No," said Aphmau, interrupting my spiel with just one word. I can't believe she would deny this so quickly. "Laurance, I picked you for a reason." I stood in confusion. I didn't understand why she would pick me, and for a specific reason. "Laurance, I trust you. I can't trust anyone else. You even said so yourself. I've trusted you with everything. I even trusted you to keep hold of the amulet. The object that if in the wrong hands, could destroy a village in minutes." I stood there in ignorance of what to say. Should I say something? Should I say silent. Aphmau sighed in frustration. "Laurance, I don't know why, but ever since I first saw you, I knew I could trust you. Even though it didn't seem like it, I did. Even when I should have doubted every decision you made, I trusted you."

"Hey, was there ever a time you even needed to doubt me?" I gave her a playful smirk. "Wow, that's harsh." Aphmau gave me a stern look, and I stopped my smirk. "Sorry."

"I know who you were thinking about giving the position to, and no, you can't let Garroth lead Phoenix Drop."

"Why? He was made for this. He is supposed to be one anyway, so it would make perfect sense if he did?" I didn't understand what she was saying. Her message was unclear. It was as if a freshly taken picture was just taken, but with the poorest of quality. It was like if it was taken on a camera that was only ten dollars.

"Laurance, you just don't get it, do you," said Aphmau. She had a smile on her face I couldn't describe. It was almost a smile of disappointment.

"Get what?" I said obliviously. I didn't know what she was talking about. He is her first in command, and she wants me to be lord?

"I just" She said the words and stopped so abruptly, like she was trying not to let the mystery of it all disappear. don't trust him like I trust you." There was a pause after don't. Not as much as before, but enough to tell what she was saying was important. She emphasized the words like it was in a foreign language. A language that no one understands. Only the person using it understands the true meaning behind the word. Trust. Suddenly, a flash of a blinding white light filled my eyes. Everything was even more blinding then before. She started to fade away. The girl I gave away was fading from my mind. I knew it the whole time. She was a figment of my imagination. I poured my heart and soul into everything I said to a shadow in my head.

I started slipping back into consciousness, and as I did, I was starting loosening the grasp of her from my reality, forever. She was gone. There was nothing I could do. I just have to forget her. After everything we have done together. Helped raise a village. Stopped a war. Even help raising a child, Malachi. Even if he wasn't mine. Everything we have done together, I just have to forget.

Author's Note-

OMG, I already wrote this before, but when I was, my battery on my laptop/tablet thing. UUGHHH. I had to rewrite the last paragraph. At least I was editing, and revising, instead of writing the whole thing. I'm mad. Oh well, at least I got some pretty good Chinese food out of it. I only like the lo'man. Sorry, I don't now how to spell. I don't like rice, so I never really liked Chinese food. Well, I do now!

Anyway, thank you guys soooo much for show tunning in, and I hope you enjoyed!

Jazz out-

P.S thank you guys for 55 reads - see next chapter. It's really just on some things I have done, and a little about me. Well, my Laurmau passion.