Aphmaus Proposal

Time Is Key

"Garroth?"

My voice was low. Lower than usual. What do you expect? I just woke up from the most terrible nightmare of my life. The worst part of it all is it was real.

"L-Laurance? You're awake! A-Are you okay?"

His voice was full of concern, but his face was emotionless. He looked fixated on something else. He seemed occupied mentally, but he was physically bored.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"

Laurance, did you really just say that?

I have had this same dream for the past two weeks. My heart won't let me forget her, even though the only way for me to continue my life is to lose all memory of her entirely. The only way for me to be able to survive is to forget.

I need to let go.

But I can't. My life would be incomplete. I can't forget the woman I love. It is like forgetting the most fond memory in your life. Like forgetting the person who made you whole. Like ripping out a piece of your own soul and abandoning it, leaving it to rot.

But more importantly, I need to worry about him.

He is not normal. He is not him. He is not Garroth, the guard-no, the brother I know.

"You just seem...pale. As if you have just seen a ghost."

His words were so empty. As if the meaning they once held are now deteriorating one by one, little by little. Now, they are almost lost in an abyss of nothing, just like he wants them to be.

I can't let him believe I notice this. He needs to think I am oblivious. He needs to be oblivious.

"What! I-It's nothing. I guess I'm still a little traumatized."

Yeah, traumatized. That would be an understatement.

You wish you were only traumatized. It wouldn't damage you as much. Nothing is there keeping you together, like glue is to a child's toy. You are not stable. You are a broken toy.

"I think we all are."

Was he reading my thoughts?

Oh, he meant about being traumatised. Laurance, he obviously can't read your thoughts. It was just an inconvenient coincidence.

The only thing is, he seemed to be speaking of another subject. He wasn't talking about Aphmau leaving. I don't quite know what it is, but I will soon.

I need to.

"The woman we both love leaving to marry another man. It hits you hard. Especially since it is by the enemy. The one person I truely didn't want her to share her life with..."

Garroth stiffened up a little bit. The emotional rollercoaster he must be on. He is handling this better than I thought he would. Even though his heart is torn, he is being strong.

If only I could be that strong. I wouldn't be dying right now if I was.

"It must be even harder for you."

He mumbled those words under his breath. He wasn't that secretive about his phrase though. I could hear him as clear as a morning sky.

I need to find out everything.

"What did you say? Sorry, I couldn't hear you."

Laurance! That was more oblivious than Aphmau was to Garroth's feelings for almost a year!

"I said-"

His voice was getting louder, and his tone was getting more furious. He was livid. He was going to hurt someone if he didn't calm down. It was like he was being turned slowly into someone he doesn't want to be, and is doing everything in his power to contain it.

I can relate to that.

"Nothing. I said nothing at all. I should attend to some business. Goodbye, Lord Laurance."

It's still weird hearing the words roll off of someone's lips. It just doesn't seem right, but even more, Garroth doesn't seem right.

He is hiding something.

Something he is never planning to reveal. It will be kept under a curtain forever, never to see light. It will be hidden in the darkness for the end of time.

He plans to do this for his whole life. Staying, hiding, then leaving. It's like a circle, a never ending one. He will never find peace if he continues his routine.

I need to reach out to him. I need to let him know whatever he is doing is not worth it. He doesn't need to hide from me, from the friend he once called his brother.

It's not a right time now. You need to wait. Time is key.

Author's note-

Yes it is Laurance. Yes indeed. It sure seems like Aphmau mastered that skill. Why! The knew episode was even worse! It was all voice acting! The emotions are flying!

Speaking of emotions, I got my lo'mean, and popped down. I need inspiration for my new chapter. I know! Let's watch Shane! His life is depressing!

Anyway, thank you guys so much for show tunning in, and I hope you enjoyed!

828 words.

Jazz out-