Aphmaus Proposal

Is Nothing better than Something?

Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Light. Darkness. Cobblestone.

It's a continuous cycle of flashing by colors forming across my retinas'.

Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White.

It keeps cycling over and over like a broken record.

Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Light. Darkness. Cobblestone.

Her.

No. It can't be. She just left my life. She can't be back. Not again. She's a faded memory. She is not a part of my life anymore. She is not her. This is someone else. This can't be her. She can't come back. No. Leave. Leave. Leave leave leave leave.

"Laurance."

No. No no no. You aren't supposed to be here. You are supposed to be with him. You are supposed to forget about me. You are supposed to forget I am alive. I'm just a speck.

"Laurance, don't let me live like this."

I don't know you. Leave me alone. Leave leave go go. Forget me so I can forget you. You are no one. I've never met you.

"I can't live this life of lying. I need to feel real emotions. I need to feel love. I need to feel you."

You don't need me. Just like I don't need you. We weren't meant to be. You are-

Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Light-

"Darkness is all I can see. It's all I can feel. I need someone to show me a world with no more night. I need you."

No you don't. See light with him. I'm sure he's fine. Unlike me. I failed. He didn't. Don't go with the failure. The failure needs victories, not love. You have love with him. He can get you that. Just look deep into-

"His eyes', they are wounded past the point of resurrection. They have lost the hope and sanity they once held. He's empty now. I can see some of it left, but it's less and less each day. It's contagious. I look in the mirror and see less sanity left in me too. It quickly escaped my body. It's-"

Dangerous. This is too dangerous. He could kill you if he thought this was happening. He could kill us. He could kill everyone in Phoenix Drop. Then there would be no more you because they are what you hold on too, and you are my-

Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Flash. Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White-

"Flashing his power of Phoenix Drop is all be does. He twists me into this sick human being. I can't bend to his desire, and my plan might take too long. It might not be able to be executed until after I-"

Turn. You have to turn. Turn into his wife. Turn into a maniac. Turn into an insane human being. Turn into a monster. Turn into a cruel, vicious being even worse than Zane could ever be. Make him jealous of your terror. Maybe then, I can believe you are actually that person and that you always were. I need you too. Please, you have to.

You have to loose your-

Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. Light-

"Darkness is what I will become. I will become the enemy. I could destroy lives, villages, innocent lives--you. I will be gone of all-"

Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Light. Darkness. Cobblestone. White. Light. Darkness-

Cobblestone. You could be like cobblestone. Gray, dark, cold, hard. You could never crack. You could be gloomy. You could be cold-hearted. Maybe then I would believe it. Maybe then I will let go. Maybe then I will loose hope. Maybe then I will forget the need of love. Yeah. That's it. That's what I need. The lose of love. Love isn't needed. I could just loose all-