Markiplier: Once Upon A Time

A/N~ Understand Please

Sorry I haven't been writing. It's not that I've hit writers block or anything. I haven't. I write continuously in books that aren't on Wattpad. I have many reasons for not writing.

One big one is that I haven't watched Markiplier in, like, half a year. I don't know why. Maybe occasionally I'll watch something of his, but I just haven't found myself wanting to keep up. Im still a huge fan. I still obsess about Mark, just not watching many videos. I don't want to talk about why.

Another reason is that school is working me too hard. It's giving me too much to keep up with and not enough time to complete things. I have to finish a project by Wednesday that I haven't started. Why haven't I? Because no one told me how. I've never done this before and I don't know how to do it now.

I regret to say this, but school and some other things I care not to talk about have caused me to form a bad habit that falls under the category of self harm.

I take scissors or a mechanical pencil and scrape across my skin in every possible place. I like that it hurts, but not for long. It leave red marks for up to two days at most. People don't really notice, so I'm able to do it a lot. It hurts temporarily, but the pain fades quickly so I can do it more frequently. From a logical stand point, it's more efficient than cutting. Less painful, more frequent, less noticeable. It's fantastic, but it's bad. It's not at all a good thing to do to myself.

I have several more reasons why I'm incapable of writing for now, but I can't explain them. I thought long and hard on this, and I can't let anyone know. I can't. And I really can't tell you why I can't let you know. Just trust me, ok? Please trust me.

I'll be writing again as soon as I can. And as soon as I feel I care enough again.

And as soon as I feel loved and valued and cared about again.

Thank you.

~Raven Lux