Lamentations Of The Heart (Poetry)

It

Dedicated to @SilentHeart14

I felt It.
At that very moment,
At that very minute,
I felt It.

I was scared.
I was unfamiliar with it.
I was inexperienced,
And it gave me the chills.

I cried.
I cried so many times.
But the reason for the tears
Was so very unclear.

Was it because of my fears?
Was it because I thought my end is near?
Was it because I was terrified of It?

I curse It.
Until the end of my days,
Until my very last breath,
I curse It.

I told myself,
"Never let It touch you again.
Never surrender yourself
To the clutches of It."

Time passed by.
New faces, new scenes,
New ideas and places to reach.
I have almost forgotten It.

Almost.

I felt It again.
At that very moment,
At that very minute,
I felt It again.

I was scared.
Why did it come back?
I was not ready yet.
What if I'll get hurt again?

But instead of the ache I dreaded,
It was replaced by a beauty I never suspected.
As they smiled at me, unknowing of my feelings,
I felt warm, and I knew this time, it's different.

They may never be mine,
And I may never be theirs,
But the sight of their smile alone,
Is enough for me to go on.

I felt It.
At that very moment,
At that very minute,
I felt It.

But this time,
There are no tears.
Just the warm feeling of It,
Guiding me through the fears.

I never thought I'd say this,
But I guess it's true.
It may bring hurt,
But the joy you get,
Is what makes It worth it.

A/N This is from my other book entitled 'It'.
Did you get what It means? :)

And also, don't think green. Someone told me it's so very green, but I told them they are only green-minded. Ciao!