fucked up | taehyung

1. numb

Being in a relationship is so hard nowadays. Honestly, you can barely trust anyone. You can be dating someone for a year and 6 months and think everything is peachy keen and turns out it isn't. Unfortunately, for me, that's my case.

"I'm sorry Mia, I just...I just can't do this anymore. You're so clingy, and I just want some space. Maybe this will work out maybe in the long run. Who knows?" Min Yoongi, my boyfriend(well now ex-boyfriend), said with no emotion whatsoever. We were currently at lunch and I knew something was wrong with him. After I asked him, "What's wrong, babe?", he decided to just dump me in front of our friends.

Sora, Jimin, Jungkook, Namjoon, Jin, and Hoseok were just staring at us in shock. They couldn't believe that Yoongi would just break up with me after almost a year and a half.

I didn't know how to feel, honestly. It felt as if everything I knew and everything that Yoongi has said to me and did was a lie. I wanted to cry, so badly, but my tears didn't come out. I looked around me and I noticed everyone was staring at us. Damn, they found out already. I saw Jiwoo Chang, the girl who gets around the school pretty quickly, who also has been trying to make moves on Yoongi, giggling in the corner with possibly her new "boy toy". Her boy toy didn't seem amused though. He had a blank face on like he couldn't care less. His eyes were directed towards my table while there was silence filling up the entire room. It was kind of overwhelming.

"Okay, Yoongi. If you say so." I stated with no emotion. I got up from my seat, threw my trash away and headed for class. All that can be heard now are my footsteps.

Now, I'm in math class with Sora while she bombards me with questions like, "Are you okay?" , "Do you want me to go kick his ass?" And I kept silent the entire time. It's not that I'm mad. I just don't know what to feel. I wanted to cry but I don't at the same time. I feel like I'm numb and its a weird feeling. Im usually happy, stay positive kind of girl, so this is a big contrast from what I'm usually like. I kept on hearing people whispering in the classroom like, "She didn't even cry! Does she not care? How dare she disrespect Yoongi Oppa!" They didn't seem to phase me, though. It was as if someone took all my feelings and put them in the trash. Am I in denial? I never thought this day would come any time soon. Our relationship was solid. We were happy, care-free, went on a date once a week, we even had sex like three times a week. I don't know what I did wrong. I gave him all of me. I guess it just wasn't enough for him.

The bell rang which was a signal for us to go to our last class. I had Art for my last period. I'm quite thankful because art helps me release all my feelings, even the ones I didn't even know I had until I started drawing.

"Alright, class. I'm going to need you to draw specifically what your feeling right now. It could be a word, a person crying, anything that helps you represent what you're feeling, draw it. It doesn't need to be perfect. When I look at the finished product, I want to KNOW how you're feeling just by looking at it. I want to feel it. This will be due at the end of the class period. You are welcome to use any utensils for this." Mr. Lee told us and went straight to his desk to do some paperwork. He's one of my favorite teachers, honestly. He doesn't treat us like we're kids who came to fuck shit up. He treats us like normal human beings and he gets major respect for it.

People got up from their tables and grabbed some pencils, paper, markers, and some even grabbed some paint and paint brushes. I didn't even know what I wanted to draw. I grabbed a pencil and a piece of paper. Should I draw a picture of someone crying even though I'm not feeling anything?? I just decided to draw a portrait of a girl with no emotion but with a single tear under her right eye and furrowed her left eyebrow. I don't know why, it seems as if she's having so many emotions yet her mouth stays closed. Also, her eyes have no expression. Her body wants to react but the girl doesn't. It's as if she doesn't want to feel all the emotions that are coming her way.

I didn't even notice that the bell rang when someone touched my shoulder and asked, "Are you okay?" I look up and it was Mr. Lee standing by my table. I also saw Jiwoos "boy toy" at the front of the class, putting his stuff away. I didn't even know that "boy toy" was in my class. I never really pay attention to anyone really, I was also focused on my artwork. I saw Mr. Lee awaiting for my answer. I just replied with, "Yeah, sorry. Here you go, Mr. Lee. I'm finished."

"Thank you, Mrs. Ahn. I'm looking forward, as always, to look at your artwork. Get home safely." After he said that, I got up and put away all my things and noticed that Yoongi always took me home. Of course he would dump me on a school day. Now I would have to walk home, but it's not that big of a deal. I needed to clear my mind anyway. As I was walking out of the classroom I saw "boy toy" right next to me. I looked at him and he just smirked at me and walked away.

Who was this guy?

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