Love Me Or Love Me Not?

Chapter 2-It Was My Fault

Chapter 2-It Was My Fault



Nicki's P.O.V

I couldn't do it. I couldn't sit there and watch them be all lovey dovey... Not when I know the truth. God I hate myself, I just wish I could tell her but I know if I do he will keep to his threat. 'I will make you suffer' were his exact words. The way he backed me up against the wall and pressed his body onto mine, then gave me that smirk. I feel disgusting; I hate what he's doing to Soph. I hate him.

I fall back on my bed and close my eyes, I take a few deep breathes before opening them and staring at the ceiling. A few minutes go by and I realise I'm still staring at the ceiling; I sit up and decide to go have shower. I get up and walk out of my room and into the bathroom. I turn on the shower and strip myself down. Once done I jump in the shower and let hot water blast my body. I scrub myself down and wash my hair before letting the water run freely down my back.

I sigh to myself as I think about Sophia and how she would feel if she knew the truth, I mean she loves Blake and you can see that, but him... He doesn't love her. He's just lying to her and he's making me lie to her as well. I feel the few tears run from my eyes but they are hidden by the water hitting my face. After a while I'm eventually ready to get out, I turn off the shower and step out. I grab my towel and wrap it around my body; I then get another to wrap up my hair. When finished I walk out of the bathroom and wonder back into my room. I dry myself off and change into a baggy t-shirt-my older brother's- and a pair of shorts. I blow dry my hair then brush it up into a messy bun. Once done I jump into my comfy bed and Skype my bestie.

"Hey Soph, you okay?"

"Hey Nick, I'm erm okay yeah you?" She says while sorting through a bunch of papers.

"I'm alright, what are you doing?"

"F-Funeral planning." Her voice is quiet

"Oh Soph, I'll be there in 10 mins. "

"No Nick it's lat-"

"Don't argue with me, I'm coming whether you like it or not, I'll see you in 10." I smile

"Hmm okay..."

And with that being said, we cut off. I get up out of my beautiful bed and change into some sweats and a jumper, I leave my hair in its messy state-as I can't be bothered to fix it- I put on my jacket and trainers and grab my phone and house keys. Once I get everything I need, I make my way out the house, and lock the front door and walk to the car. I get in and drive over to Sophia's house.



Sophia's P.O.V

As I walk back home, it becomes chilly. I feel goose bumps start to form on my arms, but I don't take notice, I have too many things on my mind right now. While I continue to walk, I think about mom and what she did after I left and how she was feeling after I said I hated her. I really hope she doesn't hate me cause I never meant it, I feel a single tear fall but I quickly wipe it away, as I reach our drive. I notice our front door is open; I furrow my eyes in confusion as I progress towards it. When I reach, I feel my heart pounding against my chest. I see her lying there in a pool of blood; my eyes already begin to release tears. Without a care of my surroundings I run over to bleeding mother.

I scream "Mom, oh my god...MOM! Please wake up" I pull her into arms and rest her limp body onto my legs. "WAKE UP MOM!"

I see her eyes slowly begin to open, she can barely even keep them, she looks up at me and her eyes widen a little.

"Sophia..." Her voice barley even a whisper

"Yes mom, I'm here" I begin to cry uncontrollably

"Baby, don't cry"

I can't help but cry, I begin to shake as I carefully place my hand over where the blood's pouring out.

"Mom, y-you're gonna be okay,I'm gonna call an a-ambulance and t-t-there gonna help you!" I slowly take my phone out my pocket-not wanting to hurt her- and call 999

I look down at my mom, while the dialling tone rings, I see the tears rolling down the sides of her face, I know she's scared. They finally answer...

"Hello, this is the emergency service, what's your emergency?"

"Hello, please you've got to help me, it's my mom, sh-sh-she's hurt, she's bleeding and-"

"Okay ma'am, please calm down, what is your address?"

"Er 410 Highcross Avenue." I begin to shake even more

"Okay ma'am an ambulance is on its way, it'll be there shortly"

"Thank you" I cut off the phone and look down at my mother who is now losing the fight, her eyes become faint and her body is even limper. My breathing becomes short and fast.

"Mom... The ambulance is on its way, hang in okay? Please hang on..." I grip onto her body tighter.

"My little girl, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I couldn't be a better mom and I'm sorry I couldn't protect you." Her voice becomes croaky and the tears are flowing out of her eyes.

"Don't... Don't say that, you're going to be okay." My tears fall even harder and faster

"Ssh, it's my time to go, the big man up there is ready for me, and he needs me." She gives me a small smile

"No mom, it's not your time, you need to stay here because we need you! Me and Lou we need our mom... So please, hang on! Don't say goodbye mom"

"I'm sorry darling, I love you so damn much I do, I know you hate me and I can see why, I failed you as a mom but I kno-"

"I don't hate you, I never could hate you and I never will, I love you mom! I never meant to say that. Don't you say your goodbyes, not yet, not today!"

She lightly places her blood covered hand on my cheek and wipes away my tears, she gives me a faint smile.

"I love you too Soph, please look after Lou and tell him I love him, you're all grown up but you'll always be my little girl. I'm so proud of you baby." Her breathing slows down until it completely stops, her hand drops from my face leaving a bloody hand print, her eyes gracefully shut, as one last tear escapes from her eye and her heart beats its last beat.

"Mm-mom no wake up! Please mom, please!" I start to shake her to wake up, the tears are now unstoppable "Please don't leave me! PLEASE!" I begin screaming, as I hold her body up against mine... "No please! You can't leave us! Come back mom! PLEASE COME BACK!"

In that moment, my one and only mom was dead in my arms... And it was my fault.

I realise my tears drowning my cheeks as I remember my mother's death, while I continue to cry the doorbell rings, I don't bother to wipe away the tears, I slowly make my way downstairs to the front door, as I open it I feel Nicki engulf me into a hug.

"Oh babe, you not doing this alone... I'm here." I slowly nod and cry heavily into her shoulder. After a moment she lets go of me and shuts the front door before wrapping her arm around me and taking me up to my room, where we plan the rest of my mom's funeral.



Hey guys, I'm sorry it's taken me so long to update this chapter but this week has been hetic, so it had to be delayed. Sorry again, alright guys so now we kinda know why Nicki has been acting so weird...the rest will be revealed in the next few chapters. I hope you guys liked this chapter, it took me a while to figure out how I was going to write it. We've found that Sophia's mom dies... but how does it happen and who's responsible? Wait and find out!

Thank you guys for reading this chapter, I love you guys xx Until next time guys ;) <3

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