The Collision Theory | Remus Lupin

27. Pour Your Heart Out

I sneak back into the hospital wing, and slip into the bed. Madame Pomfrey hasn't noticed that I had even gone, so I hide my cloak and snow-covered clothes under the bed, going full on anti-social with the covers pulled up over my face.
After what feels like a century a chair scrapes beside me, letting me know that I'm no longer alone.

"Piss off Lupin." I don't bother to stick my head out from under my blankets.

"Not him, try again."

"Lily?" I push myself up to see her sitting with an armful of sweets.

"Heard you found out about Lupin's furry little problem, as Potter puts it. You wanna talk?" She smiles kindly, moving to sit on the edge of the bed.

"You know?" I frown.

"Since we became prefects." She admits, emptying the sweets on the blanket between us, "He's not in a good state."

"And?.." I stuff some mint chocolate into my mouth, frowning at her.

"And he wants to apologise." She bites into a sugar quill, "You have to understand how hard it is for him, and he's not really good at expressing emotions."

I raise an eyebrow, "Well he shouldn't have shouted like that."

"You shouted first is what I heard."

"True." I bite my lip, staying down at the wrapper in my hand, "I just had a lot of built up anger, and with everything that happened I just-"

"Oh..."

"What?" My eyes widen, suddenly dreading that I missed something big.

Lily flinches, as if remembering something, "Aylin..."

"What?" I eye her cautiously as she slowly takes out a piece of paper from her jeans pocket and unfolds it.

"You won't be happy. Dumbledore left it while you were unconscious." She hands me the letter, which has been written in emerald green ink:
Dear Miss Novak,
It is my solemn duty to inform you that justice will not be able to be exacted over the recent events involving both Mr Snape and yourself. Though I myself would not have liked this to happen, I ask that you trust me.
All will be made clear soon, though hopefully not too soon.
   Yours sincerely,
A W B P Dumbledore.

"What the Hell is this?!" I try to control my volume, though fail.

"Maybe he has a plan." Lily says quietly, "Dumbledore always has a plan."

"Lily you make him sound like a God or something!" I screw up the letter, "I don't understand why we trust him so blindly."

She gets up to leave, "I think you need some time alone to just calm down."

Great, I ruined yet another friendship.

*

REMUS

"What did she say?" I jump at Lily, who stifles a scream when she almost bumps into me.

"Remus! You scared the Hell out of me!"

"Sorry," I wince, "but how'd it go?"

I follow her down the corridor, "She's angry at you. At herself as well. Give her a little space and she'll be over it."

"Is that it?" I feel a weight settle in the pit of my stomach.

"Just be thankful she isn't unleashing Hell on you." Lily smiles, taking my hand, "Now, go get some chocolate, you'll feel better."