Sakamichi no Apollo (Kids in the Slope) - "True Honest Feelings" (BoyxBoy)

Chapter # 1 - "The True Honest Feelings of the Sun God"

Chapter#1

"The True Honest Feelings of the Sun God"

Sentaro Kawabuchi pov:

I never knew what love was until I was already falling for Him. I believe I was captivated by him the first instant I saw him, pulling that white blanket off me. I might have been half asleep but what a beautiful sight it was. I really though he was an angel. And when I touch his hand that feeling of electricity running through my whole being. This was the same feeling I got when I first heard and played Jazz, and the same feeling I get every time I hear him play the Piano... my Angel .... Kaoru .... I still can't say his name I keep calling him Richie ... why ? Because that's my way of not getting closer to him ... something futile I see now. He was one of the reason why I left because if I couldn't protect my sister then how could I even protect him. No I didn't want him to get hurt or suffer because of my fault. But I cant hide the fact that I love him so very much I cant stop thinking of him, every second that passes he is always in my head just like his melodies, the way he play the piano. I missed everything about him. His pale skin, his soft black hair, those beautiful black eyes and that pretty mouth of his. How I long to feel that pale skin to make it flush pink with my own hands. To run my fingers through his soft black hair until I hear him purr with pleasure. To make those beautiful black eyes only look at me and finally to capture those pretty lips and kiss them until they are bruised, to devour them until they are all mine just like the rest of him... I know I left to never go back but all I do Is think of him and I cant help it its driving me insane... my angel ... are you think of me like I'm think of you? ... do you missed me too like I miss you? Oh Richie ... my beautiful angel .... My beloved Kaoru Nishimi.