It's been a month since the trip to Troye's home in Australia.
Since then, things have been bad.
These last few weeks have been especially traumatic for me.
Troye and I decided to call quits on our relationship.
I really don't know how to cope with it. He was my everything.
He was performing the other night in LA and I decided to go see him as just a person in the crowd. Wow that hurts.
When he came out on stage, he scanned the crowd and happened to make eye contact with me. He kept scanning and then immediately came back to me. Our stares only lasted a few more seconds, but it's so obvious that we have something there still.
Where did I go wrong?
The whole show he acted as if I wasn't there and went on, until he sang Talk Me Down.
Tears filled his eyes with every word.
I wanna sleep next to you
He looked up at me
But that's all I want to do right now
He was staring
So come on over and talk me down
The verses continued; to be honest I started crying too.
The next verse was special because I mouthed the words back.
I wanna hold hands with you
But that's all I wanna do right now
He stopped singing and let the crowd to the rest
And I wanna get close to you
Cause your hands and lips still know their way around
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For the rest of the show, he didn't stop looking at me and honestly I think my heart broke more than it was already.
Why did I mess this up?
We had everything
and
I
messed
it
up.
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Written By Me, Connor | (Tronnor)
FanfictionConnor Franta writes journals about everything. Troye Sivan included. Watch his life unravel before your eyes as you become intertwined with Connor's thoughts of happiness, sadness, and everything in between. {AU}
