Haikyuu x Reader

iwaizumi || remember how we forgot?

[sorry I was venting and this happened]

for as long as you could remember, you've had a camera around your neck.

it was a solid reminder of your younger days, when your mother had brought hers home and you had just been so fascinated by it. in fact, most of the footage of your childhood, taken on that camera, was filmed by you. shots of your parents being affectionate, and the ladybugs in the garden. when your brother had been born, around the time your parents gifted you your own camera, it was a fantastic sight. there wasn't a single thing akira did that you didn't get footage of, he was too new, too precious. you've always wanted to capture everything.

you wanted to capture everything beautiful, because it all falls apart eventually.

it was only an hour until the new year, sitting on the train, headphones on and closing eyes, it was late, too late. your brother had called you, he needed you at home, he didn't say why, so you had gotten on the first train to sendai. the air outside was cold, and the train whipped by in a blur of white, and it made you tired, clam, you dreamed softly as you were awake. you shut off your brain, even if just for a few minutes, it would take awhile to get there, and your knees curled to your chest, and you breathed in. the world was a beautiful place, you knew because you could see it all, take it all in, the wind through your hair and the softness of summer. the bite of winter was a painful reminder that you were alive, and being on a train new years eve, gave you a lot of time to reflect on the last year.

you cried a lot, the thought brought a small smile to your lips, eyes closed and knees still curled up. you cried a lot, you got angry a lot this year too, boyfriends and girlfriends and the transition from highschool to college, it was a big step and had lost you friends all those years ago. it put a dent in your relationships with your friends, with lovers, the ones you held close because everything had been horrible for a while, but you still took a ragged breath into your lungs, and you were alive.

it was a painful reminder, but one well needed.

you knew that as long as you had a fighting breath, something inside of you moved and it clenched your heart, and it forced you through the days. because some were downright horrible, but the sunset was always pretty. your brother used to tell you, when you were younger, that there was a sunrise and a sunset everyday, and it was your choice to be there for it, to see the miracle of day to night and night to day and the spaces between them. he was smart, even for being two years younger than him, and you felt it in your chest, it hurt because you were the reason he grew up too fast. it was the reason you were on the train, his voice calling and panic on the line, and he didn't know what to do, and you knew that was for the best.

because everything beautiful fell apart, and that included your parents.

the train came to a stop in fukushima, and you felt the load of passengers between the breaths you took, there wasn't that many, it was only a half hour until new years now, and it ached and pulled in your chest. divorce papers, you didn't want to cry, you had done that a lot this year, but you'd be lying if you said it wasn't expected. you had known for quite some time, how things fell apart, how they crumbled in your hands, so you captured the moments when you had everything, because those were the ones you wanted to remember.

the station at sendai was deserted, a lone passenger on a midnight train; the air was cold and snow fell heavily as you stepped off, nothing but the backpack hanging from your shoulder. you didn't know if you wanted to stay or not, you didn't know how long you were going to stay, but your brother was in trouble.

akira needed his family, and in those moments, you pitifully realise that his family had always been you. your parents fell apart at the seems and it was bursting them open and you were the only one who knew your brother well enough to pick up the pieces. when they exploded and took him down with them.