Jared left me vulnerable and confused like a toddler who had lost their parents in the grocery store. Murmurs from the witnesses inundated me as I sped passed them towards the car.
"Dawson."
I looked up to see Shannon. He offered a hand and an inviting stare. Taking his hand, I follow him. My whole body was shaking, I was pissed. Not from thinking of Gavin, from whatever the fuck just happened.
Shannon lead me to a room away from everyone. Jared was sitting with his head resting in his hands.
As Shannon closed the door, Jared sat up, "Dawson."
Even him saying that with his dewy eyes made me even more livid, "Shut up! Shut up shut up shut up!"
Jared hangs his shoulders and tries to walk forward but I yell even more, "Don't you think about touching me! Do you understand how embarassed I am? How confused you made me?"
My knuckles became white as I dug my nails deeper into my palms. My trembles became even stronger. Jared nods, trying apologize, as if that would make a difference. He really thought a simple gesture would atone for how fucked up he made me? He walks nearer, now only a foot away. I held my ground.
"I was left there, deer caught in the headlights and what do you do? You walked aw-" Jared planted his lips on mine hard enough to make me forget everything I was mad about. My anger, embarassment, confusion, my everything melted away. As my body relaxed, I stumbled into his chest where he waited to catch me. Taking a breath, Jared pulled me into him and continued to kiss me.
When he stopped, he didn't let my body go. He simply looked at me with hopeful eyes, "I'm sorry."
I nod, still wanting his lips on mine, "I forgive you."
