Reveries and Musings

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When we love, we are courageous ; and courage has nothing to do with being fearless. It's about being willing to express fear, even dread, to do what we must, without guarantee of the outcome.

-- Vanna Bonta

Ever wondered what it feels like to love from afar? To watch, to hope, and to long. But never to touch, to experience. Often, when you love someone, you tend to watch and observe.

You learn little habits about them. What they do when they're nervous or when they're happy. Do they bite their nails or is it frowns that mar their forehead? What happens when they're angry? Do they grow aloof and withdraw into their shells? Or do they throw things around, and fire up with a destructive passion? Do they say things they don't mean, or do they choose to project their anger through quiet indifference? How do they take their tea or coffee? Sugar, cream or just black? Do they prefer jeans and a shirt or a flowy sundress? Do they let their hair down often or like to keep it out of their face?

Little things like these give them away. Give away the secrets they hide deep in their hearts. The things that give them happiness and sadness. Those things that give them tiny pleasures.

To love someone is so euphoric! There's a kind of peace, content, tranquility in loving someone and more importantly, in them loving you back. There's a different kind of pleasure in courting someone, however old-fashioned that may be.

A tiny flower of happiness blooming in your heart when you see the one you love, blush at a compliment, which is no more than a fact, or when you give them roses, not only because they like it, but also because you find your happiness in their happiness, find your love in their love.

But most importantly, love is about courage.

To love someone from afar is painful. You wish to know, to talk, to love. Openly. But you're too afraid to admit it. Too afraid of the consequences. Too afraid of what people will think. Of whether it will spoil your friendship, forever. Whether it will cause you to lose someone who's very near and dear to you.

But sometimes, you self-doubt. You wonder whether you even deserve someone like them. Whether you will be able to give them the happiness they deserve, whether you will be what they need when everything comes crashing down, when the candle of Hope starts burning out.

You wonder whether they will be able to fit in with you and so you grieve for what they may have to give up, just in order to love you.

But love without compromise isn't really true love. It's a love that burns out like a dying star, vanishing into nothingness.

You need to give up something, lose something, in order to gain something else.

And sometimes, it's the other way around. The person you love feels he doesn't deserve you. Sometimes, he feels he isn't good enough for you, maybe because of the way he looks. Sometimes, he isn't able to believe that he's lucky enough for someone like you.

But everyone has a story to tell. Sometimes, you've suffered so much that you doubt anything remotely good that may be happening to you. You wonder when the bombshell will drop. You're so sceptical that the romance in you has hardened into cynicism.

Don't hide this cynicism behind a veil of humour.

And don't let your past bury your true self forever. Don't you let it break you so much that it becomes impossible to collect the million pieces of you, scattered all around your world.

Remember, do not judge someone till you know their story, until you know what's inside the cover, what lies beneath the pretty lies and dull, lifeless eyes.

But also remember, your past can make you, or break you. And this choice lies completely in your hands.

You suffered, because you were meant to. You had to, in order to be the person you are today.

But don't let this suffering hold you back. From chasing your dreams, searching for your happiness, touching the sky, reaching for the stars, and most importantly, living.

Do not simply survive in this world. It's the biggest injustice you can do to yourself.

Learn to live. Even if it kills you, do it. Push yourself. Test your limits. How will you learn how much you can live through if you don't even try?

Just say it. Just do it. Just go with it. If you mess it up, do it again. Every person gets a second chance. Sometimes, it's right in front of your eyes, waiting for you to snatch it up. Sometimes, it's in disguise, challenging you to unravel it, bring it out of its hiding.

But don't ever stop. Stop moving, stop learning, stop growing, stop living.

If you feel that whatever you're about to do is very stupid, do it anyway. The worst thing that can happen is that you'll make a fool out of yourself. So be it. When the audience laughs at you, laugh with them. Because you're not as amazing as your best friend describes you, and not as nasty as your enemy describes you. So learn to laugh with your friends, at yourself. It is, indeed, the best medicine.

And when you feel that you're not good enough, that living isn't your cup of tea, and dying would be the best option, think about the woman who bore you for nine months, survived bone-crushing pain just so you could live. Think about the man who taught you how to walk, held your hand throughout, who sneaked in ice-creams just to see a smile light up your face. Think about those people you touched unknowingly, and left a deep mark on their hearts.

Wonder why you were sent here in the first place. You were sent here for a purpose, for a mission.

And you coward, do not dare back out of it!

Learn to face your demons, whether your knees shake and your hands sweat, or not.

Learn to do that which you fear. Learn to speak up and stand out.

You don't have to be extraordinary to be noticed. Everybody's in a race to be that anyway.

So break the pattern. Be ordinary.

But remember. If you're you, truly you, you'll be noticed anyway. For every person is unique, every person is different.

Most importantly, remember, you don't have to shout and roar and rave, to show your courage.

Often, courage is nothing but simply picking yourself up, smiling and moving on every time you fall.

Flip your hair back, hold your head high and say, "Let the haters, and the 'no-gooders' come. I'll be waiting."

Because what goes round, always , always comes round.