BTS American Love Story *COMPLETED*

Part 27

Suga's POV:
We all sit down, Jin brings a chair over for Claire and she sits down. She lets out a deep breath and looks down. "To start off. I have a disability. And you're probably thinking that it's not noticeable. Because it's more mentally than physical, but with some situations it can be physical." "What's the disability called?" "Dyspraxia. It's when the brain can't process certain information and it gets lost. So I have more difficultly when it comes to school work and certain activities. For the physical part, I know it's not noticeable, but dance. I'm supposed to struggle with that. But I have worked my ass off to where I am today. But Jungkook, think back to the day we skateboarded." We look at him, he's biting his lower lip and thinking. "...That explains why you were really nervous and couldn't keep your balance." "It is. I can have poor hand-eye coordination, poor balance, and poor speech. I know I've messed up on my speech in front of you guys." Now that she says it... She's been messing up her speech since the day I met her... 

"But... your panic attacks," Nam Joon asks. "That's the part I'm still figuring out... Whenever I'm in a situation that I've never been in, and I can't understand, I freak out. It's happened so many times. The best way for me to get over it is if I leave the situation. I don't know if it deals with my disability, because it does take me longer to understand things. Jin... I'm really sorry about that night... But now you know why.." "You don't need to apologize Claire... It's my fault it happened in the first place." "Everything you're saying... It all makes since..," Nam Joon says. "Now that I'm thinking back to everything that's happened... It all makes since now.." "Question Claire... I know at one point you mentioned about a guy." She rubs her arm and bites her lower lip. "You don't have to tell us." "I have too... I need you guys to hear this.. Especially Jin and Suga.." "Take your time." "It might seem like a small deal. But to me, it's bigger than that. When I was 20, I was at a concert and I wanted to crowd surf for the first time. It ended badly, and I freaked out. That happened at the end of the show. When I got outside, I was still freaking out. Then this one guy saw me asking me where I got my water and than noticed that I wasn't okay. I quickly explained to him what happened and he held his arms out for me. He had let me cry and comforted me."

"What happened after?" "That's when the situation changed... He started asking me questions after I had calmed down. Asked my name, my age, we were the same age. Then he asked if I had a boyfriend. Told him I never even been on a date. Then he asked if I had ever been kissed...." "You don't have to say it Claire." "I have to. I told him. He was shocked. He kept telling me how pretty I was, which was hard to believe because I looked like crap after that concert. He kept me close. He was lightly rubbing my arms," she touches her arms at that. "Next thing I know he's leaning down. I almost had let him, but something told me not to. I pulled my head back but he kept coming. I told him to stop and he did. We exchanged numbers, and before he left, he kissed," she points to her neck, "and left. We texted for a day and I never heard from him again. Now I realize that he was just trying to take advantage of the situation. Here's a girl who clearly can't think straight, let me take advantage of her. I'm just glad we were in public..." That dick... "That's why I was so nervous with you Jin... I didn't know what was going on.. And that's why I kept asking you guys for advice with Mark.." 

Now it makes since... Because of that one guy, and her never being in a relationship, she didn't understand or know anything. And she didn't know how to handle it. And I guess with her first break up... "Hey Claire. We have something to tell you as well," Tae speaks up. She looks at all of us, we look at each other, and nod in agreement. "Suga hasn't been the only one who liked you," Jin speaks up. "Jin, Tae, J-Hope, and Jungkook also liked you." She stares at us shocked, her mouth hanging open. "I'll admit this now, I openly flirted with you," Tae says "So did I," J-Hope and Jungkook say in unison. "But what made us curious the most is, you didn't seem to notice." "Y-you guys flirted with me!?" She clearly couldn't tell that they were. "Yeah. We did." "Fuck my innocent mind... I'm so innocent, I couldn't tell that you guys were hitting on me!" "We actually thought you were flirting back." "I swear I wasn't. I was just-" "Being you," I finish for her. "I think it's because you guys weren't crossing a line. I thought that you guys were still acting as a friend, nothing more." It's hard to believe that she didn't notice. But with how her disability is, maybe she just couldn't tell because no guy has ever hit on her for real.

"But... What do you mean you also liked me. As in past tense." "Well, after you got together with Mark, and seeing how happy you were, some of us gave up. We knew we moved to slow," Jungkook says. "You were just really happy with him, that we didn't want to ruin that." "Suga?" "Jin and I hung on longer, we just couldn't forget about you. We respected your relationship, but wished it was one of us, not him." "But... why was it only Suga who..." "I decided that it had to be Suga. He was the one you were always the closes with, yeah you were really close with Nam Joon, but that didn't compare to how close you were with Suga. I should've known it would be him in the end. I think we all should've known that." "Claire, that's the main reason as to why we wanted you to stay," J-Hope says. "We all wanted you to stay so that one of us could be with you." "And it's happened." "I... Wow..." "What is it?" "It's just a lot to take in... Jackson was right..." "What did Jackson tell you?" "That you guys liked me more than as a friend. But I wasn't in a good state of mind, so I couldn't believe him." "So that's what Jackson told you that day...," Nam Joon mumbles. "What was that Nam Joon?" "Jackson showed up one day and I saw him talking to Claire. I thought he was there for Mark. But then I heard her scream and she pushed him away. I told Jackson to never come back, and to never be around Claire again." 

"Thanks RapMon..." "I guess the last question is... How do you feel about Mark?" I gulp at that question. "I don't know... My heart hurts whenever he's mentioned..." Because that was her first relationship and it ended... "I don't think I can ever see him again..." I get up, walk over to her, and kneel down in front of her. "Claire, please look at me." She slowly looks down at me and I hold her hands. "You don't have to see him if you want. You can have all of the time in the world to see him again. But for now, just focus on something else." She finally cries, "thank you Min Yoon Gi," she whispers and smiles. I smile back and wipe her tears. "Thank you to all of you... You guys have done so much for me.." "We love you Claire, we would do anything for you." I stand up and motion the guys over. They walk over and circle around her. "Claire, we have kept our promise to you. And will continue to keep it. We'll always be here for you, no matter what." "You guys," she cries and stands up. I hug her and everyone does a group hug. "You guys changed my life for the better," she mumbles into my chest. I kiss her head, "and you changed ours for the better."