When we get back to the hotel everyone is super hyper, except for Shawn.
Damn I felt bad like I was betraying a brother for a guy I love.
I loved them both so much and I would cry over both of them.
I walk over to Shawn who is sitting across from the tall window.
"Hey can I sit here or is it taken?" I ask softly
"No you can sit there" he doesn't take his eyes of the view
"Shawn you know I love you right?"
"Yeah, but it's brotherly love."
"Shawn, I think I know what you need"
"What is that"
"You just need a kiss to make it all go away" I kiss him softly on his cracked lips, "see all better. The gleam in your eyes are back your tears are gone and your smile is back. One day Shawn you will find a girl just like me. I promise" he laughs and joins the boys in a pillow fight.
I take his spot and I don't say anything or do anything sit in silence. I stare at the views and my arms and I see and remember the scar from my first cut ever.
Flashback/
Mom never loved me and dad never cared. I'm so skinny that when I looked in the mirror all i could see was skin and bones. My sister Amelia cries all the damn time and my boyfriend cheated on me. I hold the blade to my skin and think.
I cut hard and long vertically down my arm and cry at the pain.
Flashback over/
I started to cry and out of everything I wanted my mom the most. The memories of when she would push me on the swing and she would flick water on my face after washing the dishes.
Cameron walks over to me and sits down and takes my hand in his.
"Do you want a piece of licorice." He smiles with a piece of licorice in his mouth.
I laugh a little and put my mouth on the licorice and we meet in the middle. He kisses me and then comes off with licorice on his lips.
"Cameron"
"Yeah"
"I heard that they aren't quitting MAGCON"
"No we aren't quitting. But I want you to be apart of it."
My face lights up and then is slowly fading with a frown.
"Cameron I'm the only girl remember Lox quit"
"Yeah but you have me and all the boys are for it. You'll even get your own bedroom unless you want to stay in mine"
"Is it okay if I stay in yours."
"Yeah"
"Yay." I smile into his chest and I don't stop.
Slowly and carefully I fall asleep on him
Cameron's POV
OMG she was so adorable. I tangle my fingers in her hair and she slowly fell asleep. I can't believe I got her pregnant. She's so young. I felt bad but I felt happy for her. I just want her to be happy and I would do anything.
I pick her up and carry her to bed. I put her in her pjs which was just one of my shirts and undies, and she is still sleeping.
I tuck her on her side of the bed, and I turn off the lights and turn on my alarm and get in bed. She tugged at my arm.
"What babe"
"I love you"
"Awe I love you to"
