Where am I.
Groggily looking across the room people are staring through windows and sitting on the floor on their phones
What are they staring at?
I look around. It's so bright.
Above me a heart monitor is increasing due to my heart rate which feels like it's pumping out of my chest. My eyes regain their focus and linger to the edge of the bed.
Blood.
What exactly is blood doing down there. I'm not on my period. Or at least I think I'm not.
"Lucy, Are you okay?" Cameron is sitting next to me and he's crying with blood all over his hands.
I look over and for a second everything escapes my mind, nothing in me feels correct.
"Yeah, I think. What happened?" The doctors and nurses leave. Shawn is on my other side holding my pale, white hand. With blood on his hands too.
"After you passed out in the apartment we came to the hospital. You were having the baby, but twenty minutes into labor you had a miscarriage and the baby didn't make it." Tears start to surface in my eyes.
"What! No no no that can't be right! Cameron don't lie please don't!" I screamed as much as my lungs would allow. It couldn't be true.
"I'm not lying" Cams eyes start to well up.
"He's not lying. We both helped get the baby out, she was a trooper until the end." Shawn couldn't contain any tears.
"It was a girl!?" Tears flow down my cheeks and into my cracked lips.
"It'll be okay. I promise we will try again soon." Cam rests his head on my bed.
He wasn't even ready for one and he gave it his all for this baby. I feel terrible.
"Cam I want to go home." I'm so tired and I just want to go home and cry. No one here knows exactly how I feel.
"You were supposed to be discharged last this morning but you were asleep."
Panic rises in me.
"Cam where is Amelia?" Cams eyes softens little and he smiles
"There is nothing to be afraid of. Amelia is asleep in the waiting room."
I calm down a little and slowly drift off to sleep again. About 4 hours of getting my oxygen, morphine, pills, and tubing ready we're already to go.
Cam sits in the back with my head on his thigh while Shawn drives slowly.
"Can you sing me a lullaby." I play with cams ears.
"I think you had a little to much morphine." Cam laughs and kisses my forehead.
"I want chocolate." I stick my tounge out at my feet like they are people. What's wrong with me.
"Muffin man!" Shawn was sleeping at the wheel.
"Yes your majesty?" I giggle.
"Can we get some chocolate?" Shawn sighs.
"Yes your majesty." Shawn pulls into walmart and runs in and comes back with the box of Hershey's cookies and cream and regular chocolate bars.
I passed out and drooled on cams leg even though he passed out on the window with his drool on the window.
"We're home" Shawn yawns and opens the door. Cam wakes up.
"Cammmmmmmmyyyyy! Can you carry meeeeeeeeee!" My voice reminds me like I'm trying to speak whale like dory.
Shawn grabs my stuff and puts it in the room. Cam carries me I and sets me on the bed and passes out right next to me as Shawn sleeps on the couch.
"I love you cammy bear." I hug him and wince at my stomach.
"I love you to, and Im sorry."
A/N omg I'm so sorry I've had some difficulties with things in life I'm so sorry that I haven't updated I promise it'll happen more soon. and I, sorry it's short I updated at 11:35 at night
