Will Never Settle For A Quileute Boy

Venom Is Sweeter Than Cake

Venom Is Sweeter Than Cake

"Happy Birthday Jessica!"

Three weeks after the whole situation with taunting the wolf boys with my bikini, I had purposefully been steering clear of all of them, and had been spending time with making a name and image for myself. And today of all days had been the best, because it so happened to be my eighteenth birthday! I felt as if I could be on top of the world.

But it felt so weird when I didn't get that phone call or text message from anyone, neither did I get a sneak through my window when midnight hit. Paul really wasn't coming to see me, so I knew where his mind was at. Jared, Embry, Seth, Sam, and Emily, they all wished me a happy birthday, it was Jacob, and Paul who I didn't hear from. It was a low blow, but that was why I was going to go even lower.

Art class had been joyous since there had been balloons, and streamers, and even a cake had been waiting for me, but guess who wasn't there waiting for me? Paul freaking Lahote! I couldn't even begin to describe how bad I felt, I didn't know what to do at that point, so I just marched in and gave everyone my brightest smile. Hide your broken heart Jessica.

There had been nothing worse, than coming to school for your birthday, and not even seeing the one person who's supposed to be your rock. I felt completely shattered, and I didn't know whether I wanted to punch him in the face, or go home and cry about it. I knew that the punch to his face wouldn't affect him any since he was a stupid, arrogant wolf boy!

"Thank you guys," I smiled as I was receiving birthday cards from multiple students. Just to think that over the past three weeks, everyone had been getting to know the new Jess, so I was making more and more associates, which made me feel wanted and appreciated, but the longing for Paul, and the holdings from Jared, and the adoration from Quil and Embry. I missed it, and as much as I had known the wolf boys, I knew Jared would want to be around me, but I knew Jacob had been avoiding me because of Bella, and Paul was doing avoiding me because of his anger issues.

He wouldn't be avoiding me because of whatever her name was; it would have been because of the flirting, the body rubbing, bikini wearing, outfit changes and hair cutting. He had always wanted me to be myself, and not one of these bimbos that walk around school. But who was the real hypocrite? He was literally dating the biggest bimbo in school! If that didn't shout liar, I didn't know what did. If I had to be everything he hated, then so be it.

...And then he waltzed in. He took one look around, made eye contact with me and I instantly found out what was wrong when his eyes widened.

Did this freaking asshole really forget my birthday?!

I was completely done. His eyes read that he was serious, but that wasn't enough; he had been my best friend my entire life, and he forgot about today, today of all days, it was my birthday! That right there was unforgivable. I gave sympathetic smiles and I excused myself from the small circle I had been in the middle of, I made my way to Paul who looked like he was trying to come up with a good enough excuse, but there was none that could explain the hurt that had been sitting in the pit of my stomach. He was my best friend, or at least I thought he was, it was no longer my birthday. He ruined it for me.

"Jess,"

"I don't want an apology Paul," Tears were already brimming my eyes, and the last thing I wanted to do was ruin my makeup. I was growing more angry the more I stood in front of him though. I was hurt, and I didn't want to cry, I did want to punch him in his stupid face though. "Just forget about me, since obviously you couldn't even remember my fucking birthday."

I didn't want to be around anyone anymore. Paul just ruined my entire mood, and I was so done with this stupid game I was trying to play. I was walking out of school, and I was skipping the rest of the day because if I walked these halls any longer while seeing Paul, or any more of the wolf boys, I was going to vomit and then literally hit every single one of them.

.... I raced home as fast as I could, because my main goal was to make it there, change, and disappear into a run for a few hours, different terrain, different surroundings, just somewhere that wasn't near this place. I was so over it.

I was over all of this bullshit...

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Paul

I had to find her, and she wasn't anywhere to be found. I didn't know what day it was; being out all night, hunting down the dread headed blood sucker had got me so exhausted, I wasn't sure  how long I could keep my eyes open. But school called to me because I needed to graduate.

And walking all over to find where she could be was useless because she was absolutely nowhere. My next guess was that she left, only because there usually was a crowd following her around most of the time, and it wasn't by us boys. It was around people who would have never given the girl, who was supposed to be my best friend, the time of day. Now she paid no attention to us, and she expected us to give her all of our attention. I was so sorry that I forgot her birthday, but I was also trying to keep her safe.

Besides that, I still had to find her, and although it might have been her birthday, she probably no longer cared... At that point she might have decided to go for a run. It'll be easier to find her then because she usually took the same route every time, so then I could explain myself, she'd understand then. I knew she would.

I love Jessica, with all of my fucking heart, but I didn't know what to do with her. She should have known her worth and KNOWN that she didn't need to prove anything to anyone. Not even me. But she felt empty when she wasn't getting the attention she deserved from me. I mean, we have been inseparable since the day that we met, every single day after that, we were together.

Is that why she thought it was okay to kiss me, that maybe something had been forming between us? Or maybe because I was always there for her so she had a moment of weakness? I didn't know, but I had to talk to her about it, I had to think about what I had said to her in the past couple of weeks while I go and find her, but I cannot come up with anything. It was never supposed to be like this, we weren't ever supposed to find ourselves in this position. Either way I couldn't come up with a damn thing!

Was it me asking her out to the movies, what's that it? I was so lost. I demand someone tell me something, and the only girl who could tell me how she really felt, was nowhere to be found. And it would be so easy to find her, but the new perfume she wore, had faded into the storm that I could sense coming. And by now I could have spotted her coming down the road, because that would have been the route she would have taken. But still, she was nowhere in sight.

And thinking like my best friend would, her heart was completely shattered because of my stupidity, so now I thought that maybe she would take the higher road and head towards Mount Rainier. And that wasn't the best choice because I could literally smell the storm coming, and she was going to be caught dead smack in the middle of it if I was right. I had to hurry and find her before something bad happened, and that hurt feeling that sat in the pit in my stomach was telling me something bad was about to happen.

I ran for the trees, and I rushed and sprinted and hopped over every obstacle that had been in my way. At the right time, I shifted into the silver furred, and peppered colored beast that had been my inner guardian, I weaved and raced through everything ten times quicker. Being a wolf would give me more speed and more sense as to where I was heading. Although that storm was coming, and coming in strong, I could smell her. Very faint, but she was there, and she was getting further away. I had to hurry, and I had to get to her quick before it was too late, I couldn't let herself get hurt.

... God only knew why Jess decided to take a different route.

I raced, and I was going to make damn sure to get there before the rain even touched the ground. And if my life depended on it, I was going to find her even before then. I couldn't smell her anymore though and I couldn't spot her, which meant she either had some miles in between the both of us. Or something worse. And the only thing I had in the back of my mind was her hurting herself, and god forbid if there was something wrong with her...

... My heart would stop. I couldn't think like that.