Will Never Settle For A Quileute Boy

Normalize Normal For Me

Normalize Normal For Me

"So in other words, there is nothing actually physically wrong with you." Dr. Carlisle Cullen pulled back and took another look at me before facing his wife. I think he said her name was Esme.

"Okay now what about emotionally? Am I damaged?" I asked as I happened to be freaking the hell out. I didn't know how to act. I was going absolutely nuts in my mind and that's not where I wanted to be right now.

"Well Jess is back to normal everyone," Quil chuckled as he nudged Seth who also joined him.

As the laughing continued, I pinched the dweeb on the back of his arm which resulted in him jumping up and grabbing his arm while darting a stern look in my direction.

"Should've kept your mouth shut, you ass!" I shouted. And Paul instantly calmed me by resting his hands on my shoulders. He smiled once I looked back at him, but other things were going through my mind, and they weren't so great when it would have been spoken out loud. There had seriously been something going on and I knew I wasn't going crazy, because if I was, then so had been everyone else cause I wasn't the only witness to what the hell was going on.

"The sarcasm will forever be real with this one." Jared rolled his eyes, but there was still a smile on his face, somehow finding all of this amusing. But I for one, am not feeling okay about this, how could everyone just act like that what happened didn't happen?

Why would anyone want to try and find the joy in this crappy situation, like I just parted earth like a freak and everyone was cracking jokes, not okay wolf boys. Not okay.

I felt like I was completely out of my element, but there I was, sitting in the middle of a group of vampires and werewolves. I should've felt normal among all of this, so why didn't I?

I needed someone to normalize this for me, but that would be nearly impossible because there isn't anyone I know who didn't know about any of us, this, whatever I needed to call it. Either way, I didn't feel like myself, and Paul was noticing it more and more, the more I remained quiet while everyone spoke around us.

"Well maybe they're right? Jess?" Sam asked as it broke me quickly out of my trance. It seemed to snap Paul out of it too because we both shot our heads in the same direction at the same exact moment, indicating that neither of us knew what was going on.

"What now? I completely spaced." I answered as I looked between Paul and the boys,
not really concerned for the vamps, because at what point did I really give them a time of day?

"We were saying, maybe you should try something out to see what the Cullen's are working with," Jared started as he thought that maybe this was somehow a good idea, and all I saw were red flags. BAD IDEA appeared right across my forehead.

"I don't think so, I'm not going to play lab rat for anyone." I declared as soon as everyone's eyes locked on me.

"Come on Jess just try on- -"

"I said NO!" I blew up. And as soon as I did, my fists clenched and dark violet, almost black veins appeared above my skin. For the moment I didn't realize that my eyes had been clenched closed because once they opened, about everyone who'd been standing in front of me, had jumped back to give me space. If they would've done that in the first place then none of this would have happened. My eyes felt as if they were on fire, and all I wanted to do was punch Jacob in his face. My reasons why, everyone knew about that. I wasn't going to because I had only been focused on trying to calm myself over anything else really, it was obvious that I needed to steer clear from certain emotions because no matter what was happening, I was in a great amount of pain, and it was a feeling I wanted to get rid of immediately.