Keeping You Forever [sequel to Can I Keep You?]

Chapter 28

[ Harry ]


Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

I'm so fucking stupid!

I really don't know what come into me earlier but if Niall didn't interrupts us, I would've kiss Zayn.

What am I thinking seriously? It's just that the moment I saw his face and when his warm body pressed into mine, weird feelings suddenly came into me. His familiar warmth, his familiar touch.

This is just so wrong. Everything in me feels wrong. Zayn is starting to messed with my head again and I don't like it. It's just confusing me. I already moved on and I have someone new in my life. I shouldn't be allowed to feel this way right? I love Zach.

A tap on my shoulder snapped me out of my trance. I turn to my side and saw Niall. He went to sit on the stool beside me. "What's wrong Haz?"

"Nothing." I lied, taking a gulp at my beer. Niall's eyes narrowed.

"Don't you lie to me. I know you Harry, from the way your eyebrows are knotted together, it obviously says something is bothering you so come on, tell me.." he insist.

I sucked in a deep breath and raked a hand on my messy hair. "I don't know what's happening Ni."

"Is it about Zayn?"

I nodded slowly. Niall put a hand on my shoulder and gave it a soft squeeze. "Do you still lov---"

"No." I answered quickly before he could even finish. I don't want to hear that word. I chugged the content of the bottle I'm holding, ignoring the burning feeling on my throat.

I don't love him anymore. He's nothing but an old friend.

"Really?" Niall cocked a brow.

"Y-yes. He doesn't matter to me anymore."

He shrugged before taking a sip on his own drink without breaking eye contact with me. "Are you trying to convince me or yourself?"

I shot him a scowl. "Shut up."

"Fine. You don't love Zayn anymore. I get it." he chuckles, earning a glare from me.

"Did i just heard my name?" a familiar voice spoke from behind us and my body tensed instantly.

Speaking of the devil.

Zayn sit down on the vacant stool beside me. He has a bottle of beer on his hand too and his face a bit red. "Are you two talking about me behind my back?" he teased.

"No. You're imagining things." Niall snorts before he jumped out of his seat then bumped my shoulder gently. "I'll just go babe hunting aye?" he grins. I nodded. Without saying goodbye to Zayn, he turn his back on us and walks off, leaving me here alone. Talk about awkward.

"He hates me." Zayn sighed heavily. I glanced at him, shaking my head.

"No. Just give him time. He'll come around soon."

He nods but kept his gaze on the table like there's something really interesting in there.

The silence was overwhelming since no one dares to speak again. Well I don't have anything to say to him so i'll just wait for him if he ever wants to start a conversation with me but minutes passed and the loud blasting of music is the only thing I could hear.

"Howlonghaveyoubeentogether?"

My brows knots together as I stared back at Zayn who's looking at me shyly. Adorable.

"Did you say something?" I asked a little louder for him to hear me.

He gulp, his adam's apple bobbing up and down. "I was just asking you on how long have you been together? I mean you and Z-Zach."

"Oh..umm..5 months." Well it's surprising that he's asking about Zach.

"Where did you two meet?" he asked again.

"At the bar where the boys and I used to go before. Remember that one time when I didn't came home because I was so drunk and I told you that I slept in a friend's house? Well it's Zach. He helped me that night cause I was throwing up or something."

Zayn appears to be remembering the event. His brows were a little bit knotted before he utters an "oh". Another silence follows before Zayn speaks again. "Is he in a band?"

I smile. "Yes. He's the lead singer. You should hear him sing. His voice is amazing." I stated proudly. Zach's voice is like of an angel and that's one thing I love about him.

Zayn didn't answer back and just kept chugging on his drink like there's no tomorrow. The party music was replaced into a love song all of a sudden. If I was your Man by Bruno Mars plays and people around danced sweetly with their partners. Great. Thank you for making things more awkward than ever.

What is this? A prom night or something?

From the corner of my eye, I could see Zayn fiddling with his fingers. He's frowning while staring at the table. I want to speak up but I don't exactly know what to say. I want to ask things that happen to him after the day we broke up but I don't want him to think that I'm still interested in his life either because I'm not. We stayed at that state till the music was once again replaced by a happy song and people went wild again.

"I'll just...i'll just go dance 'kay?"

I blink. Before I could even answer, Zayn is now strolling towards the middle of the dance floor and then he's gone.