Attachment Is Forbidden (Obi-Wan x OC)

X. Attachment

*Obi-Wan's POV*

​​​​​​"Hello, Kenobi." I heard a voice I recognized instantly.

I turned around and smiled when I saw her in front of me, the remaining orange sun rays illuminating her figure, giving her a golden glow. "Hello, Aure." I simply said before looking back at the landscape, my arms resting on the railing of the balcony.

"​Is there any problem​​​​​?" the girl asked concerned while she approached to stand by my side.

​​​​​​"Anakin is the problem," I answered quickly.

​​​​​​"He's just a kid, Obi-Wan, that is not a nice thing to say about him. It's not his fault that this is happening to him," she told me seriously while approaching to stand next to me. I immediately regreted being so harsh, she was right.

​​​​​​"I'm sorry." I turned my head to look at her. "It's just..." I tried to find the right words. "Master Qui-Gon frustrates me sometimes! He doesn't understand that the boy is to old to start his training. He's always defying the Council and-"

I had started gabbling when I was cut off by her hand unexpectedly holding mine; she gave it a weak squeeze; it seemed that I couldn't talk anymore. "Relax. Take a deep breath. Talk slowly." I didn't really listen to what she said, I just stared at our linked hands; the feeling of her skin together with her soothing voice made me calm down. She kept talking "Now, explain, what's the problem with Anakin's age?"

It took some time for me to realize that she had asked me a question, so I didn't respond until some seconds later. I took a deep slow breath. "Children usually start their training much younger, plus, he's already very attached to his mother. It's obvious that he's concerned about her, he's scared. That could cause problems. That's why they take us from our families when we're very young, so we can't be attached to them." I don't think I had ever been so opened to anybody besides my Master; I never talked about my worries, my feelings or insecurities with anybody but him, but something about Aure made me trust her enough to tell her everything.

​"What problem​​​​​s could his attachment to his mother cause?" she asked me very curious, letting go of my hand.

​​​​​​"Attachment is a problem itself. It brings out feelings like jealousy or fear, which lead to the Dark Side of the Force," I explained.

​​​​​​"So you can't love?" Her question caught me by surprise. I looked down, trying to find the right words to explain something so complicated without sounding absurd.

​​​​​​"We can love, it's something innate, we can't help feeling it. But we must not act on our extreme feelings. It is said that a Jedi shall not know anger, nor hatred, nor love," I told her nervously, since this feelings I had for her grew more and more every second I spent with her. I had never talked about this subject with anybody besides with Qui-Gon, back when I was a teenager and I discovered that some girls made me feel uneasy.

"So marriage is out of the question..." Aure said, making me look back at her with wide eyes because of the abrupt question. I saw something new in her eyes before averted my eyes and looked instead at the sunset in front of us.

"Well, I never thought about it..." I answered truthfully; I had never thought about forming a family. I hadn't even thought about love until... Well, until right that moment. "I guess I've always known marriage and family are things I can't afford," I said in almost a whisper.

"It makes sense," she replied, but then decided to change the subject of conversation. "Where is little Ani?"

"He's in the Jedi Council chamber. They need to determine if he can be trained," I answered, not very happy.

"I hope he'll be trained... It's his dream, you know?" I nodded slowly. Of course she'd say that; she was very nice to the boy, I had noticed. "I don't think he'll go rogue because of his attachment, he's too good for that, " she said while resting her hand on my shoulder.

I smiled at her and she smiled back, instantly making me feel much better. For the next minutes, we didn't say anything more, words were not needed. It was just Aure and me, alone, looking at the sunset, waiting for the bright stars to appear. Many would have said that was the most beautiful sight of the Galaxy, but to me it was the girl standing next to me, still smiling while looking at the sky full of passing speeders, with those beautiful eyes that I wanted to be directed at me again.

I don't know how much time we spent there, I just know how much I wanted her to stay when she told me she had to leave.

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