Hey Angel (c.w.)

Fifteen.

"I've got scars, even though they can't always be seen

And pain gets hard, but now you're here and I don't feel a thing"

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{Luna}

"How's my favorite girl doing this morning?" Cole asks me and enfolds me in a hug.

I push away "You're all sweaty"

"Sorry, we had a morning practice" he says and nods his head to the direction of he teammates walking behind us.

"You don't have to apologize–"

"–are you guys, like, star-crossed lovers now?" Braden comes in between us, and puts his arms around our shoulders "Ha! Star-crossed. That's funny because Luna means moon in spanish, and 'stars' in star-crossed—"

"—Shut up" Cole groans and shrugs Braden's arm off his shoulder "we are not lovers"

"Even if we were, why would you say we are star-crossed lovers? Why not just regular ones?"I ask him with curiosity

"Well, because I don't think your dad or our coaches would want you two to be together...I think that would make you star-crossed lovers" Braden says

"Oh"

He's right. I shouldn't be with Cole. I'm a distraction to him, I'll get in the way of his chance of making it to the World Series.

"So you aren't dating...right?" Braden asks to confirm

"Who's not dating?" Jaden joins into our conversation.

"Cole and I" I tell him

"But Cole I thought—"

"—we aren't dating" Cole cuts him off "and we aren't star-crossed lovers, so please let's end this conversation" he takes a deep breath and then we walk down the fenced walkway from the practice fields to the grove silently. I can hear people talking and laughing from the other side of the fence, by all the food areas and merchandise stores.

I've been thinking about something serious lately, and I feel the need to tell him or I'll never forgive myself "Cole...can we talk" I stop walking and ask him

He stops too, and turns around to face me "Yeah come on, let's go back to the practice field"

I nod and we walk together in silence.

As we walk his hand starts to brush mine a few times until he slowly entwines our fingers.

"What did you want to talk ab—"

"—I need to go Cole"

He has a confused look on his face "what do you mean?"

"I-I can't stay alive anymore...I just can't do this anymore..." I say and face away from him

His eyes go wide and he pulls me into his arms "No don't you ever say something like that!" He says into my hair "Why would you say some thing like that?"

I start to cry "My dream last night felt so real...like Luca was still with me, and I realized that I'm still deeply in love with him. He was with me during the lowest parts of my life...I'm nothing without him"

"Luna you have your dad, you have Gwen, you have...me. Luca will always be in your heart, but you just can't end everything"

I don't answer, but instead cry into my shaking hands.

"Talk to me" he says in a hush

"I want to die" I say barely audible

"No don't say that...you don't mean it—" he starts to say "—Luna you promised me you wouldn't hurt yourself!"

"Yeah but what choice do I have!—Cole I've wanted to die everyday since my mom died, and even more after Luca left too!" I cry and he embraces me in a tight hug.

"Don't leave me. I'm here for you, please don't leave this world. It might seem like you have nothing left, but trust me you have people who love you, who are here to make you smile, and are here to listen...do you really want to give that all up Luna?"

I look at him and whisper "I'm sorry I-I don't want you to worry about me. I'm sorry I brought you into my messed up life. I'm sorry Cole"

"Don't apologize..." He says softly

"I can't distract you from what you came to Williamsport for..." I tell I'm and start to walk away.

"Stop pushing me away Luna!" He says frustrated and I stop walking, but still keep my back toward him "Don't you see that saving your life is more important than winning a baseball tournament!"

I take in everything he says, but I keep walking.

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argh! Luna thinks she's doing the right thing, but she's actually making things worse and it's really frustrating, okay.

but here is chapter 15:)) hope you liked it!!