Silence || FourTris

Chapter Six

Song for this chapter - Jesus Christ by Brand New.

"Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face, the kind you'd find on someone that could save."

Tobias.
We finished painting hours & hours later. We did all four walls turquoise, just as Tris wanted. I'll do anything these days to make her happy. She's my whole entire world, & i won't ever let her go.. as I almost did until I decided it was time to make a change. There is always room for change.

Throughout those hours, I felt like the old couple we were before things started going downhill. Before the arguments & silence. Before I almost lost the one who means the most to me.

I want to take her out for dinner tonight, but I'm afraid she'll object because she already seems exhausted enough from painting the room. We have to wait for about a day or two before we can move our actual furniture back into the room & actually sleep in there, so we will be spending our next day or so sleeping on the futon. Believe it or not, painting is actually a lot of work. So I think for tonight, I will run her a warm bubble bath, pour her a glass of wine & let her pick out movies to watch. Simple doesn't always mean boring.

Right now, we're both admiring our work we just finished when she turns & asks me what she should make for dinner.

"You don't have to make anything. We can order from the Chinese place down the street or something." She is evidently tired, & i want her to be able to relax as much as she can. I see a sigh of relief in her eyes as she smiles & gives me a small peck on the cheek, & continues to stare into my eyes.

"I love you more than anything in the whole wide world." I give her a wide smile. Her blue grey eyes are filled with happiness & content as I wrap my hands around her waist.

"You'll love me even more after I run your warm bubble bath & pour you a glass of wine." She gives me a smile in return & shakes her head as she laughs.

"Why are you so good to me?"

"Because I love you more than anything in the whole wide world."

It's moments like these that I have renewed faith in our marriage. We will resolve our problems & be the same couple that we were before we started taking each other's presence for granted. We will be the same couple that we were before we started arguing everyday. We will be the same couple that we were before we started sitting in silence. We will be okay.

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I walk on the tiled floor, nearing the bathtub as I lay down Tris' pink, silk robe on the counter along with a plain white towel.

We chose, for our bathroom, a grey, black, & white theme years ago. We haven't renovated the guest bathroom, but I hope to some time soon. It would be nice to finish furnishing anything that needs renovation before we decide to have a baby. Even if we don't have a baby for awhile, it will make it easier than having to furnish things while caring for a baby. Plus, I want the baby to be our only priority, not the house.

I turn the handle on the bathtub to hot, & pour the soap that makes the bubbles appear. Tris is currently downstairs ordering from the Chinese restaurant down the street from us. As pleasing as a home cooked meal sounds, neither of us have the energy to cook, so we agreed on Chinese.

As simple as watching movies & eating takeout is, I'm excited to be spending more time with Tris. We go back to our second counseling appointment & I'm confident of the outcome. I don't know what we will talk about, but I can't wait to resolve our problems. God knows we need to. Even if we're both starting to regain our old relationship back, we still have a lot of learning & growing to do, & having the help of someone to mend us is not a bad thing.

I stand up & turn to see Tris walking into the bathroom, smiling.

"I ordered the food. They're just going to deliver it here in about twenty five minutes." A couple strands of golden hair fall into her face as she moves them away from her eyes. Her hair has been getting so long since she cut it, about a year ago. She used to talk about dyeing it a dark brown shade, but I told her not to. Her natural hair is already perfect.

"Okay, well, your bath is ready. I'll go get you a glass of wine. Enjoy yourself." She nods her head & smiles as I leave the bathroom & walk into our bedroom.

I don't know how I got so lucky. Tris is the most beautiful, generous, & caring woman out there. We have our ups & downs - lots of downs - but what couple doesn't? Without struggles, there would be no happiness. Struggles are the heart of happiness.

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"Tobias, I'm almost ready." Tris says as she leans her head on my chest. I am dumbfounded by the random choice of words. What is she talking about?

We are currently watching Silver Linings Playbook, one of the movies Tris chose. I let her choose two, & I chose one myself but I know we will probably fall asleep during the second or third one.

"What do you mean?" I ask, curious. Whatever it is, I really want to know. The fact that she is opening up to me after months of almost unbearable silence. We're already getting somewhere, & it feels great.

"I know it's way too soon, because we just started having actual meaningful conversations about last week, but I'm ready for a baby. I think it would definitely be beneficial to our relationship & I am close to being ready."

I instantly feel a burst of happiness inside of me. I've been ready for so long. I'm ready for the long nights of getting close to no sleep at all, & having to accompany the baby. I'm ready for the days I'll have to stay home from work to stay with the baby. i'm ready for the cute outfits we will able to dress him/her in. I'm so fucking ready.

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Whelp, that was kind of a shitty chapter. But damn, it's been quite awhile since this story has last been updated. Jocelyn & I both have a lot going on, & I honestly just haven't been myself for the past six months. A lot of shit has happened & I actually deleted wattpad for a while, but I knew I couldn't give up on any of my stories because I've put so much time & effort into them to just give up on them. I wish I could describe in detail how much I fucking love all of you for commenting such sweet things on this book & for voting for it. It means so much. You have no idea. I know this book isn't that known in terms of views & votes. But you all have been so kind. Unfortunately, I'm going to have to leave at this note because I have finals tomorrow & i want to get good sleep. Well, I probably have finals tomorrow. Our school might dick out because of cold weather but it is so bogus. But it's whatever. I'm not studying over my break & if I fail, oh fucking well. love you guys. thank you for waiting so long. // Jaide.