torn up; j.s

update (21)

----------------------------------------I wake up the next morning around 10:00.
I walk to chases room and see him still asleep so I walk downstairs, get some orange juice, and sit on the couch and watch Dora. yes. dora.
I check my phone and see I have a lot of text.
Carter:
are you awake
are you okay
wake up
are you dead
hello
Megan
I beat Jacobs ass
he has a black eye
oops

Zach
Goodmorning💖

and everyone else including Jacob.
I miss you
come home
please
I love you
I'm sorry
Megan
Megan answer
are you mad at me
don't believe him
he doesn't love you Megan
stop
he's just sayin that
"let's go the beach." Chase says coming downstairs.
Chase lived in Miami, Florida so we could go to the beach whenever.
"okay let me go get dressed." I say.
"okay hurry up."
I walk upstairs to my room and find a bathing suit.

but I put on a big t shirt and shorts.
I made sure I had bracelets on though cuz you know.
"you ready yet?!"
"yeah hold on I need my phone." I scream.
I walk downstairs and we get in the car.
Once we arrive I grab the towels and my sunglasses then go find a spot on the sand.
"so wassup?" I ask.
"nothin much, just been goin to see Troye and stuff." he said.
"oh." I said laying down trying to tan.
I had my arms facing up so they could get dark bc why not.
"Why do you have all them bracelets on while you're tanning?" Chase asked.
"idk." I said.
"take them off or you'll have bracelets basically on you're arm." he said laughing tugging at them.
"no I'm fine." I said pulling my arm back.
He wasn't laughing anymore.
"give me you're arm."
"no why!?" I said scared.
"you've been cutting haven't you?"
"idk what you're talking about." I said sitting up.
He grabbed my arm and took off the bracelets.
"Megan I told you to stop."
well
"stop before you really hurt yourself."
great I'd love that
"fine." I lie.
*A couple minutes later*
"I miss dad." I say.
"I do too."
"I wish he was here."
We spend the day on the beach and stuff and I'm really starting to miss being at Carters.
Chase is going to spend the week with Troye so.
"Chase can I go to carters?" I ask.
"yeah of course, they probably miss you after one day."
I walk upstairs to get packed and stuff. I kinda felt bad but he was going to Troyes anyways so why not.
*skips all those plane stuff and stuff*😂
*Meets Carter at Airport*
"God I'm so glad you're coming back."
"same,"
We drive to the house and I walk in.
Jacob was sitting on the couch when I walked in. He turned around and noticed I was home.
"MEGAN!" he screamed running up to me.
I ignored him and walked up to my room and put my things away.
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"stop ignoring me." He said standing at the door.
I ignored him once again.
He came and sat on the floor next to me while I was folding clothes and putting them on hangers.
"I'm not with Victoria anymore."
"I'm not with you anymore." I said looking up at him then going back to what I was doing. "you could've said goodbye."
"Megan, I was scared to say goodbye. I didn't want to say goodbye.I love you and I don't ever want to lose you." he said grabbing my chin pulling my head up.
I jerked my head out of his hand and kept doing my clothes.
Then he kissed me.
God oh God.
ehhh stop.
I kissed back.
why'd you do that stupid.
"See you obviously love me too."
"stop Jacob." I said breaking the kiss.
He kept trying to kiss me again.
"I said stop!"
After I said that he stopped and stared at me.
Then I kissed him.
I couldn't help it.
He ended up on top somehow. \/

"I thought I could handle the pain from being apart from you, but I couldn't.." I said.
"I love you Megan."
"I love you Jacob."
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helloo☺️
they kissed😱😘
ilysm❤️
<>Trinn💖<>