Still Into You (Taehyung Angst)

Chapter 3

"Hello sir, I'm sorry to inform you that we aren't taking walk ins tonight".

"I have reservations for two. The names Kim Taehyung."

The hostess checks her iPad to confirm and then leads you and Yujin through a maze of couples before you arrive at your table.

"Your waiter will be right with you~".

You nod, pulling Yujin's chair out for her. You were just about to take a seat when you hear the sound of glass shattering a few tables down from you. You couldn't believe your eyes when you saw who was leaning over to wipe the wine off her date. It was (y/n). You couldn't help but stare in amazement. The way the soft light had made her glow, how the soft color of lilac fell from the tips of her hair, but most importantly how she was wearing your favorite black dress. She looked beautiful. It was at that very moment that she turned in your direction before finally locking eyes with you.

Clearly disturbed by seeing you, she ran for the doors, and before you knew it. You were chasing after her.

You finally get outside only to see that she had disappeared in the crowd. "Fuck," you groaned. It had been so long since you've seen her and the sight of her tonight just made your feelings more complicated. You thought you hated her, but the truth was you wanted to hold her so badly.

"Kim. Taehyung. Long time no see, asshole."

You turn around to see it was Kim Namjoon. Your old friend who had decided to side with (y/n) instead of you.

"Hyung. Fancy running into you here."

Namjoon scoffs, "Look here asswipe, I don't want you anywhere near (y/n). You've done enough, so please. As an old friend, don't go after her".

"Old friend my ass. What kind of friend sides with the girl who cheats on his friend! She cheated on me! Yet you're over here comforting her like some sort of dark knight! What the fuck Namjoon! I trusted you!"

"She needed someone! Anyone! She had no one! I'm her friend too you asshole!"

"But you were my friend first! She cheated on me! How could you!"

"She made a fucking mistake. She's human!"

"Do you even know how much pain i've been in because of her?!"

Namjoon looks at you in disbelief, "You? You're going on dates with girls left and right, fucking god knows how many whores, while (y/n) sat in her room waiting for you! For you to come back and give her the fucking chance to explain herself! But no! Your selfish ass decides its better to just fuck other girls till you go numb! Fuck you! I know your hurt and angry. I know you want her to suffer for a bit but Taehyung! Wake up! You've gone too far! You broke her".

Those last three words hit you hard. Yes you wanted her to feel the pain you had felt, but you never actually meant to break her. You then realize that your favorite black dress she was wearing earlier had hung loosely on her. It didn't hug her curves like it did before. She had lost weight. How hadn't you notice. It starts to pour but you don't move. What had you done.

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The sight of Taehyung had shook you up. Your heart was still racing. This whole time you had longed to see him again, yet the moment you finally do, you run away. You were scared. Scared he would never forgive you. So you did what you did best. You ran.

You lock the door behind you before crashing on your couch in the darkness. It was quiet. The only thing you could hear was your rapidly beating heartbeat. You couldn't stop yourself from replaying what had happened at the restaurant. He looked great. He definitely looked like he had been hitting up the gym. His shoulders were much broader, arms stronger, but most importantly, he looked happy.

He was there with some girl who looked like a million dollars. You close your eyes when the pain in your heart started coming back. You remember the way he had pulled her chair out for her before sneaking a kiss on her neck. Your mind was spinning. All this time you had been coped up in your room crying over him while he was out finding someone new to replace you. It hurt. Everything did.

Your tears began to fall, "No. Stop. I will not cry over him anymore. Stop it!", you say to yourself but its no use. You were still so in love with him. You felt empty. Your world was falling apart.

You rush to your bathroom to find the bottle of Advil. With shaky hands, you pour into your hand eight pills. You take a few minuets before finally deciding to down them all. You close your eyes, "It's okay. The pain will stop soon (y/n). It'll stop soon".

Your eyes slowly become more and more heavy, your breathing slows, you were just about to close your eyes one last time when you hear a knock at the door.

You manage to drag yourself to the front door. Slowly, you open the door to see Taehyung. He was soaking wet. You look at him with regret, "I'm sorry," you whispered. He had said something back but all you could see was his lips moving. The whole world stops for a second before you had finally collapsed.