Still Into You (Taehyung Angst)

Chapter 11

Stay with me. The taunting words repeat over and over again in your throbbing head as you quietly removed Namjoons' hands from your waist, before rolling out of bed. Unsurprisingly, you dropped with a thud on the ground waking Namjoon up. "Mmm," you hear Namjoon groan. 

You stay completely still trying not to make anymore unnecessary noises but it was too late, he had woken up. "(Y/n)?" Namjoon asks groggily. 

"Oh hey," you reply with a soft smile still laying butt naked on the floor. He rolls over to your side of the bed, looking down, he locks eyes with you before grinning stupidly, "What are you doing down there?" 

"I uh, I think I may or may not have fell out of bed," you laughed nervously. 

"Yeah I can see that," he chuckles deeply. "Well here," he threw a smaller blanket over your head. 

"Aaaah," you squeaked as the blanket fell on you. "What was that for?!" 

"You're laying on my floor naked, I just thought you might be cold or something I don't know?" Namjoon grins.

Oh my god. Your eyes bulge out. Quickly covering yourself with the blanket, you start to feel your cheeks heat up and you're sure you looked like a ripen tomato by now. 

"Cute," he smirks. 

"Shut up," you roll your eyes at him. 

"Were you trying to escape before I woke up?" he asks in his deep groggy morning voice. 

Oh man he sounded sexy. "No way. I had a bad dream and then next thing I knew, I was on the floor," you said with a stable voice. 

"Mhm okay, whatever you say." Namjoon smiles before getting up out of bed. 

He was butt naked and man did he look good. His body was toned and glowing. You found yourself eyeing him with your mouth open. 

"Enjoying the view?" he asked. 

You quickly averted your eyes, your cheeks slightly feeling warmer. "No" you replied. 

"That's not what you said last night when I was trying to put you to bed," he laughs. 

"Wait. What happened between us last night?" you asked. 

You were scared of the answer but you had to know. It was pretty obvious, you guys probably slept together. I mean why else would we both be naked? But you still had to get the confirmation from Namjoon. 

"Ah well, what do you think?" Namjoon puts on a pair of sweatpants before sitting back down into a nearby chair staring at you with soft sleepy eyes. 

"Namjoon," you said desperately.

"You want the truth or the lie?" He smiles. 

You rolled your eyes at him, "obviously the truth?".

"Ok well, I tried putting you to sleep last night and then you leaned up and kissed me." Namjoon kept his eyes locked on you. 

"I kissed you?" you asked in shock. 

"Yeah, you did. And then, you took my shirt off and began touching me all over." He laughs. 

Oh god. What did you get yourself into.

"But don't worry, we didn't have sex." Namjoon interrupts your thoughts. 

"We didn't?" you say with relief. 

"Nope. I mean you got us both naked and then you fell asleep on top of me." Namjoon takes a drink out of a nearby cup of water. 

"Oh," you were speechless. 

"Yeah, what a tease." He rolls his eyes.

"Yeah well now you know what all my goodies look like," you pouted.

"And you know what mine looks like too," he winks. "Hit me up if you ever feel lonely." 

"Namjoon!" you laughed. 

"I'm just kidding, I hope things aren't awkward between us just because we've seen each other naked." He smiles softly. A smile that had a certain sadness hidden behind it.

"Of course not," you replied. But truth was, things were p r e t t y awkward already. You get up from the floor making sure the blanket was still covering you up like a toga before finding your way to the bathroom nearby. 

You splash water on your face before staring into the mirror, wow. Who even am I anymore. You were still (y/n), but a very worn out (y/n), a (y/n) that has gone through a whole lot of shit, who also just regained most if not all of your memories. What now. You run your hands through your messy hair, sighing in frustration. You sat down on the edge of the bathtub, thinking hard about what you were feeling. Do I still love Taehyung? Or am I falling for Namjoon?  You were confused and unsure of what your own feelings were. Truth be told, Taehyung was your first love, he was everything to you, but he also was the one who hurt you the most even though you trusted and opened your entire heart to him. You knew you weren't perfect either, you sat there reflecting on all your mistakes from that one New Year's eve night. If I hadn't gone to the party. If I hadn't drank. If I hadn't let that filthy piece of shit taken advantage of me, none of this would've happened. Your eyes began welling up with tears. And as much as you loved Taehyung and wanted to run back into his arms, things were a whole lot more complicated now. Now, you have Namjoon. Namjoon who has always been beside you no matter what you were going through, who always took your side in any arguments or fights with anyone and had always made sure to listen to your side of the story first. Namjoon who was compassionate and caring. Namjoon who had just confessed his love to you last night. 

Namjoon knocks on the door, "(Y/n)?" 

You stand up immediately, wiping your tears as fast as you can. You turn the faucet back on before replying, "uhh yes?" You say with a shaky voice. 

"You okay? I was just worried because it got really quiet for a long time in there. Just wanted to make sure you didn't pass out or something," Namjoon said softly. 

"Yeah I'm fine, just washing up and taking a breather," you laugh softly.

Namjoon leans against the wall on the other side of the door, sighing because he knew something was wrong. "Oh okay, well I uh made some breakfast in the kitchen. It's not much but you should still eat before you go. I have to head out to run some errands, are you gonna be okay on your own?".

You close your eyes, god damn it. Why'd he have to be so sweet and caring, making your feelings ten times more complicated than it already was. You sigh out of relief, "Yeah I'll be fine! Thanks for checking in on me Nams, I'll make sure to lock the door on my way out!" 

"Alright then, I'm gonna go. I'll catch up with you later." Namjoon tugs on his beanie before deciding to finally leave (y/n)'s side. 

You hear his faint footsteps go down the hall before finally building up the courage to open the door and run out after him. "Namjoon!" you yelled. He stops right in front of the front door, turning around to look at you with a puzzled expression. 

"What? What's wrong?" he replied. 

You hug him tightly making him stiff and unsure of what was going on. "Thanks." you whispered. "Thanks for making me breakfast," you look up at him. 

He smiles gently and replies with a soft nod before peeling you off of him and leaving. 

As the door shuts behind him, you stare at the closed door for a few seconds before finally faintly whispering, "I think I love you."

(Author Notes: Hi! If you're reading this in 2022 then thank you for the support and I am so sorry I've been on a long ass hiatus. I ran into some issues with my mental health and after finishing uni, I lost a lot of creativity/motivation. I am better now and want to thank you for all the kind words/support regardless. I will update eventually, but it may not be for a while longer. If and when I am ready, I will finish my stories. Thanks again and I hope you're all healthy and well.)