Still Into You (Taehyung Angst)

Chapter 5

She groaned, eyes still half closed. You chuckled, "Baby wake up. You've slept in enough. I miss you~". After a few more minuets pass, she finally opens her eyes fully, looking at you before asking, "Who are you?".

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Your eyelids felt as heavy as lead while your head was throbbing in immense pain but you fought yourself to open up at lease one eye. The bright light from overhead hits you first, causing you to groan. You hear a chuckle from beside you, using all of the energy you had left, you open your eyes fully to be greeted by a stranger smiling at you affectionately.

You didn't know who he was but boy you wanted to find out.

"Who are you?", his smile slowly turns into a frown.

"Ya.. (y/n), stop messing around. I've missed you," he stares into your eyes.

You pull your hand away from his, "Sorry... I.."

Right then another boy walks in. He was tall with wet blonde hair, and he wore grey sweats with a black t-shirt. Damn did he look good. His arms full with grocery bags while he tries to balance his phone on his head, "Ya. Taehyung. Why are you standing there like that. I brought food. Help m-"

His mouth drops wide open along with the groceries in his arms when he looks past Taehyung to make eye contact with you. He rushes over before grabbing your hands tightly,

"(Y/n)! You're awake! My baby girl is awake!" He laughs with relief, "How are you feeling? Do you want food? I brought a lot of food. Ooo or do you want soup? I can go get you soup."

You study his face, he was clearly getting teary eyed but all you could do was stare at him. You look back at the boy who was apparently named Taehyung before switching your gaze back to the boy with wet blonde hair,

"I'm sorry, but who are you?"

"Pfft. Taehyung look at her trying to act." He chuckles, "Very funny (y/n), but your acting sucks. You're not fooling anyone baby girl."

Baby girl? Was this blonde hair boy your boyfriend? But then why was Taehyung holding your hand when you woke up? Your head was spinning and the lights were blurring, the room grew hot and the air felt tight, you close your eyes only to black out for another three hours.

When you finally wake up again, your head wasn't buzzing anymore and you felt like a new person. Your mind wanders for a bit before it remembers the two boys you had met earlier but looking around now, they were no where to be found. Was it all a dream? No. It felt so real? As you were losing yourself in your thoughts, a nurse comes in to check on you.

"Oh. You're awake? How are you feeling?"

"I feel okay. Um but can you tell me how I ended up in here?"

She looks at you with troubled eyes, "Do you really not remember anything?"

"No..."

She sighs, "Let me go get the doctor okay?"

You nod, "Oh. Can I ask you one more thing?"

"Yeah hun, what is it?"

"Who am I?"

She just stares at you with sorrowful eyes before taking a deep breathe to go on, "Your name is (y/n), you're (age), and you're suffering from really bad amnesia right now but let me go get the doctor so he can help explain everything to you okay?"

You nod.

When the nurse returns, she is accompanied by two doctors, and the two boys you had met earlier. Both Taehyung and the blonde hair boy clearly didn't get any sleep. Their eyes were droopy and swollen and you couldn't tell if it was from the lack of sleep or from crying all night.

"Hi (y/n), I'm Dr. Harris, and this is Dr. Ma. I'm a neurologist and Dr. Ma is the director of the psychiatry and psychology department here."

You look at them with curious eyes, "Can you tell me why i'm here?"

"Well. You overdosed on medications in an attempt to suicide and this young man over here saved you," he pointed at Taehyung.

You look at Taehyung and you could feel deep down that he had once ment something to you but the memories were gone. You couldn't remember.

"What? I tried to suicide? Why would I do that? I would never do that. I don't underst-"

"I know it's kind of hard to understand right now but just let me explain everything first and if you have any questions afterwards, i'll answer them then okay?"

"Okay..." you say with no energy.

"Due to the trauma to your head after overdosing, you're now suffering from dissociative amnesia, which is the result of an emotional trauma. Your brain is involuntary escaping from reality by a disconnection between thoughts, identity, consciousness and memory. It is a mental illness, and it may be more difficult to handle than just the simple amnesia most people experience because filling in the memory gaps may take years of therapy. For most people with dissociative amnesia, memory returns with time, making the overall outlook very good. In some cases, however, the individuals are never able to retrieve their buried memories."

What is this nonsense? Is this doctor really telling you that your memories could possibly never return? You don't realize it but you were crying,

"So what do I do? How do I get my memories back?", you were choking on your tears.

"Each person responds differently to therapy and it all depends on you. You have to be willing to overcome the emotional pain that your brain is shutting off."

You nod with swollen eyes.

"I think the best thing as of right now is for these young men to explain what all happened and why you wanted to suicide. Start from there," the doctor turns to Taehyung and the blonde hair boy, "I need you two to help her. Take her places you use to hang out, talk to her, reenact something that has happened in the past. Eventually something will trigger her memories. It may take weeks to months to years, but don't lose hope."

They both nod, Taehyung gets up and walks over to you. He reaches his hand out in front of you, "Don't worry, i'm here. I won't let you forget about me." 

(A/N: possible update of chp. 6 tomorrow~ yeh yeh yeh.)