No More Secrets (BWWM)

Chapter 26: Road To Recovery

A/N: Thank you to all who commented on the last chapter! You guys are the best readers I could ask for. Hope you all enjoy this chapter! It's titled this for a reason! Love you guys,

~CasuallyMe.







I cried with Kyden in the back seat over to Eva's. I knew it would take a while to get back to normal with everyone, but I never imagine it being this hard with Cody. He is the love of my life, but we've lost connection. I knocked on the door, carefully holding my daughter and her diaper bag.

"Who is- oh my god baby. Come in," Eva said and took Kyden from me. She came back minutes later with a towel and Danielle. I was soaking wet because it was raining, and my window decided to not roll up. I was wet, sad, and yet somewhat happy. Happy that Cody and I were finally slowly starting our way back to restoration, and happy to see my best friends.

"What happened?!" Dani squeaked as she pulled me into her chest.

"We had a fight," I whimpered. We all walked to the living room after Eva made me change clothes. I sat down after wiping the left over mascara I had on.

"So what happened?" They asked at the same time. We all were in footy pajamas and had a blanket.

"Remember when we were on the phone?" I asked and they nodded telling me they did. "Well, after I hung up, I snapped. He's just been different. Now all he wants is sex sex sex, and I get that. We haven't had each other in a while, but I needed him more mentally and emotionally. I needed my best friend back, my buddy. I wanted to just talk because he left me for 8 hours with just our daughter. But no. He wanted sex. We argued and before I left, he apologized. I accepted, and we had a moment when our hearts were beating together. It was sweet, and now we're finally becoming one again. I just needed some air, so I came here," I told them and they nodded. Eva opened her mouth, but was cut off when Shawn and David came up from the basement, their new man cave.

"Hey," I smiled as they took a seat in the living room, each kissing my forehead.

"Do y'all mind if we talk to Allison for a bit?" David asked. My bestfriends got up and went to the nursery.

"Alli? We know Cody. We know him probably almost as well as you do. But he was different when you left," Shawn started and I felt tears present on my face. My big brothers would know exactly how to deal with this.

"Yeah, and we didn't know who he was. He shut down, completely. Now, he's just trying to come back to himself. It's weird for him, but he's trying. For you," David said and wiped a tear away.

"He is trying to get that old Cody that you both want back. But the problem is that he has a guard up, afraid you'll leave again. Or maybe you'll get hurt, or even die. That's his mentality now. It'll take a while, but he loves you. He's just scared is all," Shawn explained.

"Well how do I get him to trust me and not think that bad stuff will happen?" I whispered.

"It just takes time. You guys need to be around each other as much as possible. Oh, and by the way, you don't annoy him," David said rubbing my back. I shot them a quizzical look. How'd they know?

"He just called. Haha," Shawn told me. I nodded, and David continued.

"You don't annoy him darling. It's just that he's thinking about you constantly. He can't shake you out of his mind, and it's starting to irritate him. He can't resist you either, which is hard for him to do already. He's trying not to think about what's running through your head, or what you'll wear tomorrow, or how great of a wife and mother you are. And to do that, he overcompensates with sex," David finished.

"Yeah, so it'll help if you guys just talked. Not tonight, tomorrow. You both need some space," Shawn yawned and stood up.

"Thanks, I love you guys," I said pulling them into a group hug. "I hope you don't mind, but I'm stealing you guys's girls tonight, I need them," I sighed. They chuckled and said they understood.

I walked up the stairs plopping down in between my main hoes with a smile on my face.

"What's with you bitch? This goofy ass grin!" Danielle joked, and I threw my head back, laughing.

"I just feel like Cody and I's relationship will be much better after we figure this stuff out," I mumbled as I turned the TV.

"SPONGEBOB!" We squealed and watched the episode. About 4 episodes in, my eyes got heavy.

"I'll always love him," I whispered clutching my teddy bear before falling asleep.



!~* Cody's POV *~!





I was up and ready. I made sure my hair was perfect, and I smelled good. Today is the day that Allison and I officially start back together. Mentally, emotionally, and yes, physically. I stood at the door, teddy bear in hand. I don't know why, but I have given Allison about 12 teddy bears, this being number 13. She kept them neatly on a private shelf made just for them in her closet. She slept with the one that had "C.A.K. Forever," every night. She refuses to even close her eyes without me and it being beside her.

My heart was nervously pounding as I heard her car pulling in, and my wife cut the engine. I stepped back so she wouldn't be frightened when she walked in. The door jiggled, and finally opened revealing my gorgeous best friend. Yeah, she's my best friend too.

"Good morning love," I whispered and kissed her temple then Kyden's.

"Hi baby. I missed you," she mumbled as our mouthes connected.

"I missed you too," I nudged her neck with my nose. She let out the cutest giggle before handing me our daughter, and leading us to the couch.

"Here. I- I uhmm, I bought you this?" I said more questioning than stating. I could feel blush rising to my cheeks, and Alli laughed and grabbed the bear from my hands. 'Back to forever and always.' It read. She pulled the biggest and most adorable smile and my heart warmed.

"You know you're so cute," I laughed grabbing Kyden's bottle and feeding her. She's on a schedule, and it was nearing 10. She cries everyday at 10 to eat, then get changed.

"You know?" Alli asked surprised by my outside thinking. I said that out loud? Whoops.

"Uhh yeah. I watch you everyday at 10 when you feed her. And I watch as you rock her. It's the sweetest thing I've ever seen," I said as blushed played with my face again.

"You're so cute," she whispered standing to get some coffee. I studied her as I held Kyden close to me. I watched as Allison's now tied up hair was slight fuzzed in its ponytail. She switched her hips as she came to sit back down.

"So..." She trailed off. "How do we deal with this?" My wife squirmed, nervously.

"Well, for starters, we need to spend more time together. I find myself thinking about you more and more, and that's why I said I didn't know if you annoyed me. Truth is, you don't. I just can't seem to get you out of my head, and that's distracting sometimes. But I accept that you just have a hold on me, and that I love you," I answered.

"I feel that way too Cody. I love you so much, that it's unreal. How far would we go just to be together..?" She trailed and I cut her off.

"It doesn't matter. All that matters is that we're together now and we're not leaving," I smiled up meeting her waiting eyes. In the past three months, they went from a full brown to a light gray kind of. I noted it as exhaustion because after a good night's sleep, her eyes returned to a deep brown. That brown that I missed.

"Okay. Maybe we can let our moms watch Kyden, and we can go on dates and stuff. It's exactly like dating again. It's exactly like learning-" I cut her off again, finishing her sentence.

"How to love again," I flashed her a dimpled grin and she nodded with a smile.

"Yeah... How to love you again," she whispered.

"And I'll surprise you more and we can hold each other at night and talk. No sex, just talking," I suggested standing from the table, and placing Kyden in her car seat. Her appointment is in 20 minutes.

"No sex?!" Allison screamed and I flinched. I sauntered over after making sure Kyden was secure.

"Does that bother you?" I smirked taking her bottom lip and pulling then letting it fling back.

"It bothers me, a lot... Daddy," she purred and I almost lost all control.

"We can't now baby. But I'll have my mom watch Kyden after, and when we come back, I will ram. that. ass," I said kissing her neck between the last three words.

We walked into the doctor's with me carrying the carseat attachment.

"Here to see Dr. Tasha, Kyden Anderson," I told the blonde. She nodded, and sent us back to the rooms.

Allison was pacing as I sat in a corner. Today, Kyden is getting her 4th month shots, and Alli is terrified.

"Baby, sit down. You're making me dizzy!" I laughed and she took a seat next to me.

"Sorry. I'm just nervous," she replied and laid on my shoulder.

"So, do you wanna talk? You know, get to know you again?" I asked hopeful that she would say yes.

"Yeah, that'd be nice," she smiled up at me, pecking my lips.

"Favorite color?"

"Pink. Favorite movie?"

"Friday. Where do you wanna be in 5 years?" This question caught her off guard. It was a deeper question, one that required time to think.

"I want to be having the most amazing marriage with you. And a little boy that looks like me. I want to be completely at peace, and you owning the firm, while I own my own practice. And I want Eva and Danielle to have another baby too. And maybe Jace and Destiny will be together," she joked and I chuckled. "What about you?"

"I want everything that you want. Except, I want you to have a motorcycle," I sighed in thought about her swinging her leg over a bike with her mid back length hair slinging everywhere.

"A motorcycle babe... Really?" She laughed and held on to her stomach. I groaned and frowned at her. She tried to speak through the laughter, but failed.

"W-why d-do you want me on a motorcycle?" She said finally calming down and letting go of her toned stomach.

"Imagine it! You'd be a sexy ass married mom with a fucking bike. THAT'S EVERY MAN'S DREAM! AND your skin tone and body is perfect... Damn," I whispered catching a glimpse at her swollen chest. I looked up to meet her eyes and she was panting.

"I don't think that I can wait until home. I need you, now," she panted moving to straddle me. The knock on the door tore us apart, and Allison jumped back in her seat just before Dr. Tasha came in.

"My favorite couple! Well, your friends are my favorites too, but I saw them yesterday. You guys are a day late," she joked and Allison took Kyden out of her carseat holding her on the bed.

"Hi Dr. Tasha! It's been a while," Alli smiled and I greeted the doctor.

"It has been! Lets get baby Kyden weighed and take her temperature," she instructed picking her up from me. Kyden was getting a little on the chubby side. But lets be honest, all chubby babies are the cutest ones.

"She's right on target. It'll be time for her to move to formula in a little while. Hearing, sight, and temperature seems really good! You and Danielle and Eva have some perfect little babies!" She spoke to my wife.

Now for the hard part: Shots. Dr. Tasha said her goodbyes, hugging us both, then disappearing. A nurse, the same one that delivered Kyden, came with 3 shots.

"I don't wanna watch Cody!" Alli squealed as she plunged into my chest. The nurse nodded and hurried with the shots, being careful with our daughter. It was all done and over with in 10 minutes. I found myself rocking my big baby back and forth until the nurse handed Kyden back to me, and prescribed her some antibiotics incase the shots started hurting.

"Alli, she's fine. Look!" I exclaimed. I lifted our babygirl in the air, playing with her. She gave her mommy and daddy a huge gum filled grin. My heart warmed, and at that moment was when I became wrapped around my daughter's finger. That would come back to bite me when she turned a teenager, I won't be able to say no.

After a 30 minute drive, Alli and I had managed to get Kyden to my mom's house, and made it home. I could tell that she was horny, and hell, I always am. We pulled into our drive way, and Alli was already half naked by the time we reached the porch. Good thing we live kind of out in the country.

I stepped in the house, pushing Alli against the front door.

"We are about to do this like we have never done before," I groaned grinding our bottom halves together.

"Cody, don't p-play with me. Room, now," she commanded. I picked her up and carried her to our bedroom. I threw her on the bed and she flopped up before coming back down. She giggled and I went wild.

"That damn giggle. Gets me every time," I whispered moving between her legs. I lunged toward her neck and I felt her hands go up to my abs that were still covered with a shirt. She ripped my shirt and threw it to the side. She literally ripped it. I knew she was desperate for my touch, and I was desperate for hers. But this was my time to take full control.

"Cody, hurry up!" She yelled as I sucked on her neck. I slowly slid my pants off, and she moved her hands to the waist band of my underwear.





She moved and plucked the waist band of my shorts.

"Ah ah ah! We're gonna play a little game," I teased her. I was desperate, hell I'm thirsty! I wanted her skin to rub against mine, thrusting in and out of her.

"Shit Cody. I hate you," she mumbled.


After it was all said and done, Allison laid on my toned chest, listening to my breathing.

"Babe," I called.

"Mhm?" She answered simply.

"I'm so sorry about being so sex-thirsty. I don't like the guy I've become, and I really am working on changing it. Your the best thing that's ever happened to me, you and Ky. And the lady thing I want is to lose you over being guard. I don't care how long it takes, but I will have you back how it used to be. I love you so much, I'm in love with you so deep. And I always will be," I he breathed and kissed my forehead.

"I love you too," she smiled, kissing his chest.




A/N: Yaaaayyyy! Road to recovery! I am posting a chapter Saturday night! It will be the first chapter of my new book titled Marked and Mated. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE read it. Whoever comments or inboxes telling me that they read it will get a shoutout next chapter! Love you guys,

~CasuallyMe