while i sat there,
wallowing in confusion and
holding onto small fragments of resentment,
he was smiling his stupid smile,
like he knew something i didn't.
and it made me angry, that he was doing this to me,
that he came to my house,
tonight,
instead of when i actually needed him.
you see, we hadn't talked for a while,
other than greeting each other in the hallway,
and discussing assignments at school.
so the silence felt weird
with the absence of niceties and small talk,
but at the same time,
it reminded me of how close
we used to be.
i thought about the many nights we spent
on this roof together,
smiling, the both of us,
while we got lost in the stars.
i couldn't figure out
if the stars were now distracting us,
or saving us,
from what was to come.
what i did know was that
we certainly weren't lost in the stars anymore;
we didn't need the stars to get lost.
it was easy to get lost, nowadays.
in the past couple years
life became confusing,
muddled with expectations and burdens
that tangled together into one mess.
there was no clear path,
no maps and no directions,
not even a clear fork in the road.
i didn't want to give up,
i didn't want to abandon the path,
but, at some point,
everyone gets tired of wandering in the unknown.
perhaps that was why i hated sitting next to him
without saying anything,
because with unspoken words
and a wayward smile,
he managed to wander back into the unknown,
bringing me along
with him.
// a.n. lol i forgot to do an authors note srry fam
but here is my random question(s):
what do you think happened between them?
also, are you guys going anywhere for spring break??? //
