soon, millie came running over,
and wrapped me in a hug.
"god, i miss you guys.
i feel like i haven't seen you in forever,"
she said, sitting down next to us.
"yeah, that happens when you spend
the whole summer in the bahamas," i pointed out.
"haha, very funny adelaide.
but if you had the choice to go to a tropical island,
or stay in oak harbor for the whole summer,
i'm pretty sure i know what you would pick,"
she replied, sarcasm in her voice.
i smiled.
millie continued to tell sienna and i
about her many adventures in the bahamas.
she also tried to remember all the names
of the guys she hooked up with,
but sadly,
she only remembered 5 out of the 7.
she groaned.
"i should know this.
we talked for almost an hour at the restaurant."
"i wouldn't sweat it--
he probably doesn't remember your name either,"
sienna teased.
millie sighed.
"am i really that forgettable?"
we all laughed,
but soon we were drowned out
by the shrill ring of the bell.
so all of us went our separate ways,
and i headed towards my english class,
where i saw tim standing outside the door.
"what an unpleasant surprise,"
he said as i approached.
"nice to see you too, tim,"
i responded, ever so kindly.
he laughed,
and we sat next to each other in class,
talking about summer.
the bell rung once more.
now, time passed
with little meaning.
i saw the hands moving on the clock,
but the moments were still.
sounds
were white noise.
words,
just a blur.
i left class
without saying goodbye to tim.
sadly, sienna's efforts
could not get him out of my head.
the regret refused to subside.
hours passed without notice.
i went to lunch and
i sat at the same table
i've sat at since freshman year.
four years had passed,
but i felt just a scared
and out of place
today,
as i felt my very first day.
all my surroundings,
they were the same,
but nothing felt familiar,
not even my two best friends.
my best friends--
i should trust them the most.
they should know me the best.
right?
but had they noticed that i am not the same as before?
had they noticed that ash has replaced my bones,
and i am more fragile than ever before?
had they noticed
that i say the same things,
discuss the same subjects,
and avoid ever talking about
the day i burned?
did they even know i burned?
did they even smell the smoke?
did they see the flame?
did they feel the ash?
or, did they,
like everyone else,
run from the wildfire,
and never look back?
//a.n. so sorry for making you guys wait so long for an update. i've been hella busy with college apps ((plz someone save me)). i'll try to update more often, i promise!!
random question: what is your favorite dog/cat breed?
i love german shepherds!! //
