"but it wasn't just that," he told me.
"even after that summer,
i never told you i was sorry,
i never mended our friendship,
i never made the effort to
talk to you about everything.
i ignored what was happening to us,
because i was too scared of the consequences."
"but you're making the effort now.
that's what matters," i assured.
"i don't get it," he said, furrowing his eyebrows.
"how you can be so nice to me
after all i've done to you?
why don't you hate me?" he continued.
"c'mon, you know i don't hate anyone.
is that really what you expected from me?" i asked.
"i don't know," he paused.
"i guess you've never been one to hold grudges.
i don't even think i've seen you angry
for more than twenty minutes."
i smiled. "sounds about right."
"but seriously. i'm sorry, adelaide..."
he took a deep breath.
"...i know it must be hard losing your only sibling.
asher was--"
"levi, just...not right now."
i didn't feel like talking about it at the moment;
the wound was still fresh,
even though it had been two years since it happened.
i guess i never really felt like talking about it,
because i didn't feel the need to.
i thought about it constantly,
i relived it constantly,
and that was overwhelming enough.
soon the air filled with tension,
so we went back to
staring the night sky
and listening to the waves
softly crash against the rocky shore.
"i never asked," i started.
"why'd you come over here?"
he didn't answer.
instead, his eyes,
cold and black like a starless night,
remained focused
on the constellations.
i faced him.
"levi, it's two o clock at night,
and you're on my roof,
on the day before school starts,
and you haven't been to my house in months.
you have to understand where i'm coming from."
"yeah, yeah, i get it, " he said, his fingers fumbling with his keys.
"i got in a huge fight with my dad,
and he brought luke into it too.
honestly, i don't want to talk about it,
i just wanted to stargaze on your roof,
like we were kids again,
so i could forget about everything.
that probably seems dumb, i know,
so if you want me to leave,
i understand."
"no, you don't have to go.
i've liked talking, you know,
like we're friends again," i replied.
he grinned. "me too."
"but, you do know
you can stargaze on your own roof, right?" i told him.
he laughed.
"yeah, i know.
but i'd rather stargaze with you than by myself."
// a.n. SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG TO UPDATE :(((
i was on spring break and i was super busy but i hope this was worth the wait!!
question: if you could do a meet any celebrity who would you meet???
p.s. the new lumineers album is my life //
