Greenflame: pain

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See update again and I renamed the book pain 1/24/15

Kai's pov

It's such a horrible feeling. The feeling of emptiness. A feeling of sadness and jealousy. A horrible feeling that won't go away no matter how much you want it to. The feeling that no one care. The feeling of being unloved. I'm feeling all of that plus more.

Lloyd, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been so stupid, but now it's to late. You love hope and not me. I should have realized earlier. A tear slips from my eye. I sit in my room alone crying about my broken heart. I wish I realized sooner my feelings for Lloyd, but I didn't.

I don't even care about Skylor anymore. I just want me and Skylor to be over and me and Lloyd to be together. Lloyd is mine and only mine. But hope ruined that. Wait no she didn't.... I did because I waited to long. I need Lloyd in my life. I-I can't live without him.

Lloyd has moved on from me. He won't ever love me. He will live hope and marry her and make babies with her. They will die together and be happy together and I will be the idiot that said no.

I don't even care if Skylor hates me I just need to break it to her. I don't love her anymore. Lloyd is my one and only. I just can't take it. I feel like I'm cheating and I have to tell her. I know this is probably the most jerky thing ever but I pick up my phone a dial Skylors number. The phone rings a few times before she picks up.

"Hello?"she says.

"Uh hey sky. Can we talk for a second?"I ask her.

"I'm kind of busy with Lisa so could you please make it quick,"she says.

"I-I don't think this is working out."

"What's not working out?"

"Us. We aren't meant to be,"I say.

"And you called me to tell me this?!" She yells but I can here her voice cracking.

"Sky I'm sorry,"I say.

"No sorry's kai. I hate you! I never want to see you again! Get out of my house before I get back!"

I get up and put my phone in my pocket walking to the closet grabbing my suit case. I pack all of my clothes in it. I box up all of my things again and call Lloyd. The phone rings then he picks up.

"Hey Kai!"

"Can you put Sensei on the phone?"u ask.

"Yeah sure,"I here shuffling around,"what do you need my student,"I here Sensei ask.

"Me and Skylor are broken up and I need to come back,"I say.

"When?"

"Now."

"I will send a moving truck,"he says and hangs up.

I move all of my boxes and suit cases into the living room waiting for the truck to arrive. The door knob starts to turn and then I hear the click of the door unlocking. Skylor steps into the living room crying. I look at her feeling so bad. She wipes away her tears and looks at me with a mix of anger and sadness.

"Why are you still here,"she says her voice trying to hold back from crying.

"Sensei called a moving truck which should be here soon,"I say.

"Good,"she says wiping away a few more tears.

"Skylor I don't want you to hate me I just don't think it's working between us,"I blurt out.

Skylor looks up at me, "Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why is it not "working out" Did I do something wrong?"

"It's not you its me,"I just realized how jerky that sounded. She crosses her arms and looks at me with a 'really' face. "I'm serous it has nothing to do with you its something with me."

"Why? Kai please tell me I want to know,"she pleases.

"Lloyd,"I say looking down at my feet.

"You like him?"she asks.

"No,"she looks at me confused, "I love him,"I finish.

"Kai I'm happy you didn't keep leading me on. If you stated with me neither of us would be happy. I'm not mad and I don't hate you,"she says.

"Yeah but there is one problem,"I say.

"And what's that?"she asks.

"H-He loves hope,"I say.

"Hope? Who is that?"she asks.

"I'm pretty sure you met her before. She has blonde hair and always hangs out with Lloyd. I think he met her online or something like that,"I explain.

"And he said he loved her?"she asks?

"Uh yeah,"I hold back a tear thinking about what I saw.

Skylor hugs me. I hug her back. We hug for a few minutes and then she pulls away, "I will be here for you Kai if you need to talk."

"I-I rejected him,"I say.

"What do you mean?"she asks.

I explain how Lloyd told me liked me and I called him mean things. Then how hope came along out of no where and they started hanging out 24/7. I told her about the dream about him. I told her how I felt like I was cheating and when hope told me Lloyd was depressed because of me. I told her her I kissed Lloyd and how it felt and how bad I felt when he pushed me away. I tell her my thoughts on Lloyd and hope saying I love you right before I was about to make a move. How I waited to long. I just opened up to her and told her everything. It took about an hour to tell her everything and the moving truck still wasn't here.

"That must be hard. I feel like it was kind of my fault for being your girlfriend,"she says.

"Sky it's not your fault,"I say to her.

"Are you sure?"she asks.

"I'm positive."

I hear the moving truck pull up. Skylor helps me take my things to the truck. Once we get all my things into the truck. I head off to my old/new home.

Lloyds pov

Kai broke up with Skylor! Maybe now he will be mine..

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