Out of Hand (One Direction/Harry)

Chapter 24: Want

"No, you are not. I'm sleeping in here." I jerk my hand from his grip. "In the same bed as Zayn, because oh God I want to do bad stuff to him!" He tries to grab my wrist again but I jump on the bed and tuck myself in. "Good night, you can leave."

After a few seconds I hear the door slam closed.

I can feel whatever sensation being close to Harry gives me fade away as fast as he closes the door. I drag my body out of the bed, pulling the blankets and a pillow to the floor making a bed. I lay down and fall asleep as soon as my head touches the pillow.

...

"It's late wake up!" My eyes hurt a lot when I open them.

"I need an aspirin." I can barely say and I turn around analyzing where am I and what happened.

I am at Zayn's, Oceane is still sleeping on his bed. Oh God. Fuck! I threw myself at Harry last night. Why do I have to be such a fucking whore when I'm drunk? I am literally never drinking again.

"Here." Zayn says and hands me some coffee and aspirin. My head is pounding and I feel disgusting.

I drag myself up and shower. Zayn sneaks in the bathroom to hand me some clothes Oceane brough over.

As the cold water touches my skin I try to remember last night. His words echo in my mind.

"You're so drunk Raine."

I keep repeating the words in my mind. The fact that he wouldn't dare to touch me while I'm intoxicated pleases me somehow. I get out of the shower and change to some baggy clothes.

We make some breakfast for Oceane, but my head is somewhere else the whole time. After breakfast I ask Daniel to pick me up.

"Hey." I get inside his car and press my lips against his. I bring my hands up to his face and kiss him harder. I want to get my mind off things.

"Fisty, I like it." He says after I let go of his face.

"Me too." I lie.

We agree on stopping at the super market to get some junk food. We go to the nearest Publix.

"I want Pita ones, and mtn dew." I say as we go inside.

"Me too, and nutella." Daniel says and holds my hand. I smile at him and move his hand over my shoulder.

We move through the different shelves full of food and stop at the one full with bag of chips.

"Raine, I was meaning to talk to you." I look for the voice talking to me and realize it's Cailin, the girl that has been tutoring Harry for me.

"Hey Cai, how are you?" I ask as I untangle myself from Daniel's arms.

"I'm very sorry, but I can't tutor Harry anymore." Oh my fucking God Harry, I had totally forgotten about him for a moment.

"But Cai..."

"I know what I said, but he's so, um, mean." She says and I can see he has made her feel bad.

"It's fine, thanks for replacing me for a few days though." I say, she nods and then leaves.

I go back to Daniel that now has our food.

"Why was she tutoring Harry, I thought you two were fine." Fucking curious Daniel not fucking now.

"Um, we are, I was just busy and needed the extra time, because of, um Acacia." I try to sound the most honest I can.

"Oh." He says.

We pay for everything and go back to the car.

"We're going to my house right?" Daniel says as he turns the engine on.

"Yes we are." I turn the radio on and Daughter is playing.

"Great, we'll watch a movie."

"Which one?" I ask.

"I don't know, pride an..." His ringtone interrupts him. "Hey mom." His tone is annoyed now. "Mom I can't, I'm hanging out with Raine. My fucking girlfriend!" I can hear the voice on the phone shout at him. I actually can't believe his mom would do that, she's so nice. "Okay, I'll be there."

"Take me to my house, you can come by later, if she lets you." I say and grab the bags groceries.

Daniel makes a U turn back to my house. I was looking forward to some heavy make out session, or maybe even more, everything of this day would've been so fucking perfect. I kiss him good bye and go inside the house. I hate this clothes I feel so naked because the pants are so baggy. I make my way to my room and go straight to the drawers singing the melody of the song that was playing on the radio. Acacia must be showering because the shower is on. I take out some comfy pajama pants and pull my pants down. The long pajama pants I am now pulling up my legs feel so comfy.

"So you're a stripper now?" For a moment I'm terrified and the words hit me like bullets until I turn around and find Harry Styles laying on my bed.

"No! Why are you here, get out of my fucking house." The anger towards myself talks.

"It's nothing I haven't seen, or touched." I can't come up with anything. "I would've joined Acacia, but you know, she didn't let me because it seems like you don't like us doing stuff in your house."

"You're disgusting Harry." I say and turn around to fold the shorts I was wearing. A knot is forming inside my throat.

"I wasn't disgusting at trestles or when you were tutoring me or yesterday at Zayn's! Was I?"

The knot on my throat is replaced with anger.

"You fucking bastard!" I shout and realize Acacia is in the shower. I walk closer to him and lower my voice. "You fucking bastard, I was drunk! And you were being so jealous of the idea of Zayn fucking me. You're such a fucking self centered jerk."

"I want you." He says and my expression changes completely.

"What?"

"I want you, like I want to touch you and I want to make you feel good and I want you to do the same. God I...."

What?

"Stop." I blurt out.

"Why?" He says laughing.

"Because you can't just tell me that Harry we're friends and frie...." I don't finish because we're not friends.

"But you let fucking Malik to..." I don't let him finish I can't believe this is happening.

"I don't let him! Oh my fucking God Harry! Just shut up and stop telling me you want me!"

"Why?" He straightens up and I take a step back.

"Because it confuses me." Fuck. Why did I just say?

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